Day 5
I was wrong. The reading materials and CDs from the 90 Day Challenge handbook were helpful. As was this morning's coaching conference call. Michelle is very inspiring and really seems to know what she's talking about. She explained that these thoughts and feelings of frustration are common with everyone--universal in fact. The readings, the CD, and our conversation were all about disempowering language, behavior, and emotions. We talked about the tricks to maintaining a positive outlook and speaking in helpful, productive ways. We talked about keeping a vision of the ultimate goal, rather than the process, is what will get us where we want to be. The language we choose to think about ourselves, our lives, our choices, all serve to bring us exactly where we say we want to be.
All my negative talk--I'm so fat, I'm chubby, I can't do this, I hate this, I'm so stressed, I'm so busy, It's all crazy--put me in a mindset to fail, miserably. I'm not just managing my cravings and urges, I'm fighting against my own mind. Instead, I need to think positively. One of the tool is when I say something negative in my head (all the time!) I need to catch the thought and say "cancel" take a breath, then give myself a second to rephrase into something positive.
Everyday I'm losing weight and I'm getting closer to the vision of myself.
All I need is within me now.
I love my life and everything I create in it.
I am a strong, focused person and I can accomplish anything I desire.
WHAT I FOCUS ON IS WHAT I CREATE.
It's some cheesy shit fer sher, but I can already feel a little mental shift. I realized that with my recent weight gain, I'd also fallen into a lot of negative self talk. In fact, the weight gain and negative talk all dates back to the same moment--vacationing in Alaska with my family. Stress much ya think? 15 pounds in a week and a half. That is a lot of comfort food. I had moved forward with a lot of positive talk in the past, but I think Alaska (a place I never wanted to visit even), a busy semester at school and busy quarter at work, among other issues led me back to my eating, bad mouthing myself ways.
I realize I have more work to do, but I'm on the right track. I want to think better of myself and my possiblities. I will be fearless. Tonight I'm seeing a dance performance at Stanford Lively Arts on my own, and as I'm already at work, I figure I'll hang around reading my diet materials and listen to the CDs while I wait from 5 to 8.
And, I'll keep detoxing. Only 9 more days! Then apparently, I get to eat more food. And, cayenne in the veggie broth made it a whole lot better.
Food:
Wake and drink 2 glasses of water, 1 with 1/2 lemon squeezed into it.
Breakfast: piece of fruit at room temp
15-30 minutes later: bowl of steel cut oats, banana, splash almond milk
11 AM 1-2 cups of vegetabe broth (spiced with cayenne)
Lunch: Large salad of leafy greens and cucumber with balsamic and olive oil and 4 oz salmon
3 PM: Green Master Clense Shake (water, meyer lemon juice, green vibrance powder, cayenne pepper and amber maple syrup)
5-6 PM: two bowls of steamed veggies (currently cold in the frige)
All my negative talk--I'm so fat, I'm chubby, I can't do this, I hate this, I'm so stressed, I'm so busy, It's all crazy--put me in a mindset to fail, miserably. I'm not just managing my cravings and urges, I'm fighting against my own mind. Instead, I need to think positively. One of the tool is when I say something negative in my head (all the time!) I need to catch the thought and say "cancel" take a breath, then give myself a second to rephrase into something positive.
Everyday I'm losing weight and I'm getting closer to the vision of myself.
All I need is within me now.
I love my life and everything I create in it.
I am a strong, focused person and I can accomplish anything I desire.
WHAT I FOCUS ON IS WHAT I CREATE.
It's some cheesy shit fer sher, but I can already feel a little mental shift. I realized that with my recent weight gain, I'd also fallen into a lot of negative self talk. In fact, the weight gain and negative talk all dates back to the same moment--vacationing in Alaska with my family. Stress much ya think? 15 pounds in a week and a half. That is a lot of comfort food. I had moved forward with a lot of positive talk in the past, but I think Alaska (a place I never wanted to visit even), a busy semester at school and busy quarter at work, among other issues led me back to my eating, bad mouthing myself ways.
I realize I have more work to do, but I'm on the right track. I want to think better of myself and my possiblities. I will be fearless. Tonight I'm seeing a dance performance at Stanford Lively Arts on my own, and as I'm already at work, I figure I'll hang around reading my diet materials and listen to the CDs while I wait from 5 to 8.
And, I'll keep detoxing. Only 9 more days! Then apparently, I get to eat more food. And, cayenne in the veggie broth made it a whole lot better.
Food:
Wake and drink 2 glasses of water, 1 with 1/2 lemon squeezed into it.
Breakfast: piece of fruit at room temp
15-30 minutes later: bowl of steel cut oats, banana, splash almond milk
11 AM 1-2 cups of vegetabe broth (spiced with cayenne)
Lunch: Large salad of leafy greens and cucumber with balsamic and olive oil and 4 oz salmon
3 PM: Green Master Clense Shake (water, meyer lemon juice, green vibrance powder, cayenne pepper and amber maple syrup)
5-6 PM: two bowls of steamed veggies (currently cold in the frige)