Day 4 (Part 2 of the whine)
I dreaded lunch today. I smelt pizza next door and tasted it's deliciousness with my nose. I felt the hunger rumbling in my belly and felt dread. Today's lunch was another load of cold, steamed veggies and cold, day old quinoa. I added salt to make it a bit better, but nothing could save this meal. The quinoa was like cardboard. So I tried adding some hot water, which made it tepid, soggy cardboard. Then came the steamed veggies. Cold because I can't microwave them. I chewed and chewed and chewed. Ugh. I felt almost nauseous eating this crap. I couldn't quite finish it all, so I abandoned my efforts with a sigh. Still hungry, but better than trying to eat that stuff. I feel a bit bad about being hungry cause I don't want to sabotage my metabolism or something. In two hours, I'll drink some (ugh again) veggie broth and a piece of cold salmon. yesterday, I made the mistake of leaving the salmon out of the frige for a few ours so it would hit room temperature. While it didn't taste spoiled or make me sick, there was a funny smell.
I can't keep eating cold food like this. I'm completely averse to cold food.
I realized, when I looked over my food for the day, that I spend a good deal of time looking forward to what I'm eating next. While being on a restricted menu diet emphasizes this, I realize that even when not limiting my food, thinking about what I'll eat next is a great source of entertainment, satisfaction, and downright pleasure. I can't believe how much I love tasty, well-prepared and often fattening food. I mean it, there is love in my heart when I think about what they serve on Top Chef. A longing in my bones when I smell that pizza. It's a cruel irony that I've been reading Madhur Jaffrey's memoir, Climbing the Mango Tree as all she can do is talk about food--and unlike most Western readers, I know what the stuff tastes like.
Which is why I am bummed.
I have nothing tasty to look forward to today. Trying to muster up enthusiasm over cold salmon or freshly steamed veggies is a little tough. OK, freshly steamed veggies are a huge leap above this cold crunchy stuff I've been eating. And tomorrow I'm having a salad and fruit again. I really miss fruit.
And tomorrow I have my first conference call. I'm excited about that cause I have a list of questions and issues. Here they are so far:
1. Is tea for only after dinner, or can I drink it all day long?
2. Will changing exercise days affect the diet plan?
3. The flax shake is not sustaining. A tiny 4 oz serving at 7 AM does not hold me through 11 AM veggie broth. Is that flax shake recipe really 4 servings?
4. Are snacks OK? Can I add in things like fruit after dinner or lunch? I assume almonds are out.
5. How do I integrate my swim class into this program? Class it about 30+ minutes and my HR is in the upper 140s to 150. How does that affect my eating and exercise plan?
6. Can I use the elliptical trainer? Would the HR range be the same as the treadmill?
7. I'm sick of cold, steamed veggies at work. What are my warming options in a stove-free kitchen?
I can't keep eating cold food like this. I'm completely averse to cold food.
I realized, when I looked over my food for the day, that I spend a good deal of time looking forward to what I'm eating next. While being on a restricted menu diet emphasizes this, I realize that even when not limiting my food, thinking about what I'll eat next is a great source of entertainment, satisfaction, and downright pleasure. I can't believe how much I love tasty, well-prepared and often fattening food. I mean it, there is love in my heart when I think about what they serve on Top Chef. A longing in my bones when I smell that pizza. It's a cruel irony that I've been reading Madhur Jaffrey's memoir, Climbing the Mango Tree as all she can do is talk about food--and unlike most Western readers, I know what the stuff tastes like.
Which is why I am bummed.
I have nothing tasty to look forward to today. Trying to muster up enthusiasm over cold salmon or freshly steamed veggies is a little tough. OK, freshly steamed veggies are a huge leap above this cold crunchy stuff I've been eating. And tomorrow I'm having a salad and fruit again. I really miss fruit.
And tomorrow I have my first conference call. I'm excited about that cause I have a list of questions and issues. Here they are so far:
1. Is tea for only after dinner, or can I drink it all day long?
2. Will changing exercise days affect the diet plan?
3. The flax shake is not sustaining. A tiny 4 oz serving at 7 AM does not hold me through 11 AM veggie broth. Is that flax shake recipe really 4 servings?
4. Are snacks OK? Can I add in things like fruit after dinner or lunch? I assume almonds are out.
5. How do I integrate my swim class into this program? Class it about 30+ minutes and my HR is in the upper 140s to 150. How does that affect my eating and exercise plan?
6. Can I use the elliptical trainer? Would the HR range be the same as the treadmill?
7. I'm sick of cold, steamed veggies at work. What are my warming options in a stove-free kitchen?