least likely candidate
so jumpin outta nowhere and creepin into my heart is my friend allen. ya... april 24th *slaps ass*... inside joke.
allen. "picnic's allen" id say to anyone who's worked at knotts and asked me "allen who?" and then they'd know exactly who i was inviting to hang out w/ us or whatever over the past 2 years. i knew he liked me back in the day, but we've been friends for a long time, and it was just something in the past that never blew into any kinda issue, and was pretty much forgotten and never affected our friendship.
then...outta no where he jokes about how we both date real "winners" and that he and i will just eventually end up together.... wait... did he talk to God about this? how did he know? this is gettin weird...
he invites me to watch Sin City cuz id never seen it, nor have i ever really been inside his house, let alone driven to it very many times. he tested the waters that night as i pretended not to notice what was really goin on. i knew, but i didnt want it to be weird. luckily the cat was always in the way when he tried pullin me to lie next to him on the couch. a long hug goodbye kinda reminded me what i'd been thinkin...
2 weeks go by, and im like o... k... guess it wasnt anything after all. then we get a chance to talk when neither or us were in school or working, and we make plans to hang out last friday nite. no good movies to see worth fightin the friday nite crowd, so he ends up drivin down to my house. he'd never seen Team America, so we watched that, and he went for the cuddle... i went with the flow, and thats how it all began.
When the movie ended, we found ourselves drivin around lookin for an idea at just about midnite, and rented yet another movie "crash" instead. w/ food we come back to my house, sneak back inside as quietly as possible at 12:30 at night, and i fall asleep durin the movie. one thing leads to another and we're makin out and eventually fallin asleep together... yup... he stayed the whole nite.
but see, heres the best part... he just held me and cuddled me all night long and never once let me go. hes got that touch, that you just never want to stop, all over your body, its so soft and meaningful. it felt so good to just be with someone in that way. nothing happened, and thats what made it great.
heres the thing tho.. am i dating a friend, or are we more or less than that? something sems weird, and im afraid to lose a friend, but it seems right. we'll see!
allen. "picnic's allen" id say to anyone who's worked at knotts and asked me "allen who?" and then they'd know exactly who i was inviting to hang out w/ us or whatever over the past 2 years. i knew he liked me back in the day, but we've been friends for a long time, and it was just something in the past that never blew into any kinda issue, and was pretty much forgotten and never affected our friendship.
then...outta no where he jokes about how we both date real "winners" and that he and i will just eventually end up together.... wait... did he talk to God about this? how did he know? this is gettin weird...
he invites me to watch Sin City cuz id never seen it, nor have i ever really been inside his house, let alone driven to it very many times. he tested the waters that night as i pretended not to notice what was really goin on. i knew, but i didnt want it to be weird. luckily the cat was always in the way when he tried pullin me to lie next to him on the couch. a long hug goodbye kinda reminded me what i'd been thinkin...
2 weeks go by, and im like o... k... guess it wasnt anything after all. then we get a chance to talk when neither or us were in school or working, and we make plans to hang out last friday nite. no good movies to see worth fightin the friday nite crowd, so he ends up drivin down to my house. he'd never seen Team America, so we watched that, and he went for the cuddle... i went with the flow, and thats how it all began.
When the movie ended, we found ourselves drivin around lookin for an idea at just about midnite, and rented yet another movie "crash" instead. w/ food we come back to my house, sneak back inside as quietly as possible at 12:30 at night, and i fall asleep durin the movie. one thing leads to another and we're makin out and eventually fallin asleep together... yup... he stayed the whole nite.
but see, heres the best part... he just held me and cuddled me all night long and never once let me go. hes got that touch, that you just never want to stop, all over your body, its so soft and meaningful. it felt so good to just be with someone in that way. nothing happened, and thats what made it great.
heres the thing tho.. am i dating a friend, or are we more or less than that? something sems weird, and im afraid to lose a friend, but it seems right. we'll see!