Look how pretty she is when she falls down, Now there is no beauty in bleeding mascara
So Im home from vacation. It was alot of fun. Alicia and Amanda n I met soo many people. We had the best time. I hav so many stories to tell. We became friends with all the skateboarders. We hung out with them every night. Our curfew was 1130 but we snuck out a few times. All of the boys were older then us. I realized that I go for older guys.My moms best friends Nadja, well her sons name is Dave, hes 23, and he came up with us. Welllllll I deffinatlly have a crush on him. We were talking n stuff n he was saying how the age difference doesnt matter to him. And we were watching Resident Evil one night and everyoner else wentb to bed and we stated up til 3 well I was like laying on him and he was rubing my legs n stuff n he was sending signals. hehhh. Hes so cute. But i think its too unrealistic, I mean hes 23 and hes my moms best friends son. But we promised eachother that by the time Im 21 n hes 28 n were still not married then we'll get married. But yah we were flirting all week. I met sooo many cool kids. Hmm well I guess Ill terll you about a few of them. On the first dayt we met Phil, who remembered me from last yr. Alicia had a crush on him all wk, and then we met his friend Chris who I liked, but no longer do. So we hung out with them all week. And then we met allllllll the boys in the skate camp. Most of them were cocky and just i dono weird. But still they weere fun. I hooked up with a few, but nothing big. So hmm..I did meet this one boy who I guess Im interested in. So his names Andrew. And he came up on saturday, which sucks cus it would have been fun to hav seen him all week. I had a crush on him last summer =/. Hes really cool. I like him, hes interesting. You know how Im always talking about the kind of guy I want n stuff, its creepy cus he sort of fits the description. You know? But he lives far away but woww I figured out how to get to him, if Bev will let me. So he goes to college in Providence, which really isnt that far away. But still.. it is for someone who cant drive right now. For some reason, I really like talking to him. I dont wana say too much cus I kno hes gona read this hah n I dont wana freak him out. But I hope we keep talking and we can see what happens. Plus hes a bmx rider and that just screams TURN ON!
So umm Bob, my stepmoms dad died on friday, today I had to go the funeral. It was sooooo sad! Oh My God, it was torture. Ive realised that I dont have much emotion. I dont cry at anyone funeral, its so weird!
Im gettin frustrated with some friends. It seems like they all just became really close and dont really fit me into their lives anymore. Which is okay cus I have plenty more but still its aggervating. But I love my Leesh n Pand. Someone showed me wat Megan wrote in her journal bout how I dont hav time for her or some shit like that. Oh please, like she ever calls me and makes plans with me. I love how I get all the blame. Eh whatever.
Anyways, Waterville this year was the best so far. I realized so much stuff, I got rid of "him" and decided to fully move on. And its all great right now. I wish I didnt have to come to reality. But I have to go get ready to go to the mall.