2013 in words

Dec 31, 2013 18:19

2013 in fic! Here we go:

X-Men: First Class
Unfinished Business (63,702 words)
so we came to february (aka 25 days of OTP) (10,639 words)
• • • Shopping (431 words)
• • • Making Out (503 words)
• • • Spooning (456 words)
Purgatory (350 words)
when you're sixteen, everything's the end of the world (3,310 words)
Make it Work (3,038 words)
maybe ours is the cause of all mankind (528 words)
the part you're born to play (1,252 words)
Barflys (1,184 words)
Dark with a Sense of Coming Doom (4,746 words)
Send All My Loving To You (3,076 words)
Learning Curve (1,658 words)
because of what will be (the future of her own making remix) (1,176 words)
Some Such Place (The Big Screen Classics Remix) (17,437 words)
Peanut Butter and Honey (The Fairytale Remix) (981 words)
six sweet seeds (the modern myth remix) (709 words)
now bring me your bruises (the writing our history remix) (3,830 words)
Soup and Blankets (The Winter in Winter Remix) (1,559 words)
Provincetown (The All I Ever Wanted Remix) (2,242 words)
Accidents Will Happen (10,986 words)
the things we did and didn't do (5,822 words)
we'll all be gone for the summer (20,493 words)
Halloween ficlet (1,497 words)
Holiday (5,052 words)
this is life (and everything's alright) (17,476 words)
a day when we can finally rest (2,826 words)
Resources, Status, and Enjoyable Interactions (3,288 words)
Snail Mail (7,585 words)
a hundred thousand times over (1,565 words)
Tumblings (18,668 words)
This and That: A Daycare Verse Collection (5,695 words)
A Good Deed (2,661 words)

Total: 31

X-Treme X-Men
Five Minutes (The Unbound Remix) (661 words)
(there are also a couple X-Treme X-Men in the "Tumblings" and "so we came to february" collections)

Total: 1

Welcome to Night Vale
Strange or Malevolent (1,982 words)

Total: 1

Grand Total Fandoms: 3+ (there are a couple Bomb Girls, a Hawkeye, and a few other things in the "Tumblings" collection)
Grand Total Stories: 33
Grand Total Word Count: 229,064

Overall Thoughts:

Another big year for X-Men: First Class. Obviously it's still my main fandom and I'm still chugging along. I wrote a handful of other things in ficlet form and toyed in Welcome to Night Vale, but XMFC is still home. I did do a lot of non-XMFC fic reading this year. In June and July, at the start of WtNV fandom, I was reading that fandom almost exclusively, but once it totally blew up and I couldn't keep up, I sort of drifted out of it. I read a bit in Bomb Girls and Doctor Who as well.

This was also a year that had a very long (for me) spate of...writer's block, I guess? The "we'll all be gone for the summer" collection had chapters posted in August and September, but other than the one chapter I posted on October 1, I didn't finish anything in October, nor did I finish anything until basically the last day of November. September and October were dry spells for me and November was painful. I wrote only because I forced myself to every day and half the time I hated when I wrote when I looked back on it. I abandoned three projects after getting 7k+ into them, and almost abandoned a fourth until kaydeefalls intervened.

I felt very demoralized during the fall, moreso and for longer than I've felt in a long time. It's strange for me, because usually if I don't love something I've written, I'm at lease blase about it. This fall I was so anxious about every word I wrote and so worried that everything was terrible, which is sort of out of character for me? I mean, I do worry about if things are terrible, but usually in a slightly more casual way. Never in a way that's crippling like this. I am absolutely the, "Well, I'll write it and if it's already been done and it's not great, whatever, I'll still post it and just be kind of embarrassed." This year, for the first time, I found myself falling prey to the brain weasels I've so often tried to talk others out of--it's awful, I'm embarrassed that I wrote it, I can't even re-read it, someone else has already done it and theirs is better, etc. Part of that was me internalizing something someone actually said to me which I'm sure they didn't mean in a cruel way, but which stuck with me nonetheless. The rest of it was, as metonymy put it, the depression that colors so much of the rest of my life finally seeping into my writing life.

I'm hoping that committing to November's writing schedule will help get me on track for this year--I started getting up at 5am to write for an hour before work. My brain seems to be awake enough to make sentences at 5am, but not awake enough to get down on myself about them. I had a great word count in November, even if I ended up tossing a lot of it, and best of all, I felt good about what I was doing, at least at the time. Plus, I think that sleep schedule helps me get through work with a little more ease.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?
Less, definitely. I was aiming for at least 250k overall, I think, and not writing for so long was really a blow to that. I did, however, write more than I assumed when I sat down and put the words together. When I did a rough estimate on the AO3 stats page, I just wanted to be close to last year's 226k and was totally surprised when I was nearly there. When I added up all the ficlets I hadn't posted to AO3, I was even more surprised to see that I surpassed it.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?
Well, Night Vale, obviously, as I was only peripherally aware of its existence until May. Other than that, I think I'm pretty predictable.

What's your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest?
Hm...maybe a tie between we'll all be gone for the summer because I LOVE that universe and have at least as many words of backstory in emails/texts to pearl_o as I do actual fic, and Some Such Place (The Big Screen Classics Remix) because it's the story I keep coming back to the most--I'm really pleased with how it turned out.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?
Not...really? I'm pretty boring and predictable, let's be real. Aside from the scariness of writing in a new fandom, I guess the most ~*risky*~ thing I tried was the steampunk story I wrote at the end of the year, but even that was my usual stuff in steampunk dressing with vague ideas of doing more.

My best story of this year:
Nothing particularly jumps out as best overall. I think, in terms of plotting and mystery and planning, probably Unfinished Business, but I really think the character arcs in Some Such Place are probably my best of the year.

My most popular story of this year:
According to AO3, it was Strange or Malevolent, which isn't surprising as WtNV was the big summer fandom. My most popular XMFC was the chaptered we'll all be gone for the summer. The most popular non-chaptered XMFC was the only real daycare I posted, Accidents Will Happen.

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
It's hard for me to say. I feel like every year I have a long secret_mutant fic that I work really hard on that doesn't really get read during the anon bit of the fest because of its length and then gets lost in the shuffle of yuletide, etc. Last year, it was "irreconcilable differences," which went on to steadily get more hits/comments as the year went on. This year, because I honestly couldn't tell whether the story was good or not, the relative unpopularity of this is life (and everything's alright) was really, really niggling. And I just checked and it's caught up to my other SM stories in terms of hits/kudos, so all these thoughts are unfounded, especially because I still honestly can't tell if I even like it. idk.

Anyway, all that aside, to the surprise of no one, my Angel/Raven remix, now bring me your bruises (the writing our history remix), is one of the lowest hits/kudos fics I have up in XMFC.

Most fun story to write:
I LOVE writing remixes, and I think I wrote like...eight? So all of those are always great. As illustrated by the fact that I wrote eight. Make it Work was great fun to write and came very easily, as did Snail Mail and Resources, Status, and Enjoyable Interactions, and I've already started daydreaming further adventures for the universes of those last two, which is always the sign of the fun story for me.

Story with the single sexiest moment:
I don't do a lot of porn, and when I do it usually has a purpose, so I liked the library scene in Unfinished Business because it said so much about what that Charles and Erik were going through, even if I don't think it was rated more than a hard R. Also, more than the actual sex, I liked the scene between Charles and Erik in the cafe in Some Such Place, after they've worked out their feelings and are giving a relationship a try. It's mostly just kissing and such, but the comfortable physicality between them is pretty sexy, I think.

Story with the single sweetest moment:
There are some nice bits in Accidents Will Happen of Charles and Erik in the hospital, and also the whole of a hundred thousand times over.

Most "Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story:
Nothing really. I write predominantly fluff, plot, or character stories, so...

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:
I just re-read last year's answer, which was a really thoughtful bit on the differences between writing an original X-trilogy Magneto and an XMFC Magneto (found here, but you need to scroll down), and I wish I had something that interesting to say this year. Alas.

I mostly played it safe this year and stuck to writing what I know, which is stuff during the movie and powered modern AUs. I think, probably, the most I learned about all the characters, which still pales in comparison to last year, was Unfinished Business. It was an interesting dynamic to write--Charles, Erik, and Moira still learning how to navigate each other post-beach, with Charles and Erik in a new relationship. I don't know that I learned a lot about the characters ~*overall*~ writing that one, but I did have to think very carefully about how they would all get along in that particular scenario.

Hardest story to write:
Hahaha, the ones I gave up on /o\

Uh, let's see, from a deadline perspective, Unfinished Business was difficult because I was racing the clock to try and churn out the end of the story on time, while also trying to tell shaliara as much as possible as I went so she could do the art. I still feel like I did her a great disservice by not finishing in enough time for her to be able to do more pictures /o\

From a "my brain is broken how do you word crying and gnashing of teeth" perspective, it was this is life (and everything's alright). I re-started this story...three or four times? And worked on it right up until the deadline and had to force it out of me in places. It was a thing I knew I HAD to get done despite the writing slump I had been in, and it sort of unblocked me? I mean, I finished it and then wrote another 13k of fic in the space of less than two weeks, which was more than I had done for all of September and October combined. And I'm really glad Edie's story started to emerge as it did--I think it's a much better fic as Edie's story than it would have been if it was 3k of Charles and Raven baking with the girls and Erik being irate about it.

Biggest Disappointment:
I can't say I was disappointed in any particular story. As I said earlier, stuff that I found too disappointing I just dropped altogether. I'm disappointed that I didn't get more done--there were more remixes I wanted to do, more Secret Mutant Madness stories, more chapters of the shore fic, more daycare, and the tons and tons of other WsiP that I wanted to finish and barely touched.

Biggest Surprise:
Nothing too surprising, I think. Aside from a new fandom, I played it safe all year. I guess I was kind of surprised I finished the 25 Days of OTP? And that the shore fic was as popular as it was and spawned into such a huge thing in my head. But there was no one story that made me say, "oh my gosh, I would not have expected that!"

Most Unintentionally Telling Story:
I don't think anything was unintentionally telling. Some of Erik's bits in Some Such Place are directly pulled from my own experience of dealing (badly) with change as an adult. My anxiety manifests in a different way than Erik's, but some bits of this is life (and everything's alright) were lifted from the way my brain copes with things. we'll all be gone for the summer has my love of Jersey written all over it. I mean, I tend to write about the types of stories that speak to me, but it's not unintentional--found families, discovering identity and becoming comfortable with it, navigating your place in other people's lives. I'd say those are the themes of 90% of what I write and it's mostly done on purpose, although sometimes I'll be struggling with something and not realize until I take a step back that, duh, underneath the surface this story is about Charles trying to become comfortable in his own skin around Erik, I've written this story a million times.

So...yes. Sorry for that non-answer.

Plans for the next year:
Starting January 6, I'm back to the bed-at-nine-up-at-5 writing schedule, first and foremost. I know I keep evangelizing this schedule, but I can't believe how much it helped me, emotionally and mentally. Aside from the above bit about not being awake enough to be self-critical, it also gets it DONE early in the day. If I have the time/inspiration later in the day, then it's a boon, but I don't kick myself over "wasted time" and being "unproductive" if I decide to watch a movie with mcwonthelottery after work instead of writing, and I can get to bed earlier without guilt if I'm not egging myself on to just write a few sentences more.

This Saturday I'm hanging out with littledust and, in addition to watching Arthur Christmas (it still counts if it's before the Epiphany!), I think we're going to make some "check-ins" and write-in dates to keep better track of what we're doing and have some shared accountability without the large-scale public accountability of something like Get Your Words Out. (I am a delicate flower that can't handle that many strangers judging me XD)

Outside of writing habits, I hope to finish pearl_o's birthday story this week or next, at a more sedate pace than I've been trying the past two days XD Beyond that, I'd like to have Days of Kitty Past done before DoFP and MAYBE the third No Yesterdays on the Road story. Mostly, I'm going to continue to avoid signing up for any big things aside from Remix (and I'll still be doing SM in the fall), and just see where the year takes me. It would be nice to clear out some WsiP, but I'm trying not to put pressure on myself. I'd like to work on more original things, particularly the MG novel I've had in a drawer for four years (it's about middle school super heroes, so it's not a huge tonal leap), but again, I'm trying to make this a lower pressure year. I don't want to burn out again. That was really horrid :\

I also think I'm going to try and do another "25 Days of OTP" thing in February, but maybe take prompts from people instead of using a random list.

Basically, no big plans, let's see where the year takes us and get our land legs back.

i guess i'm in xmen: fc fandom now, writing: is hard, new years, 2013, welcome to night vale, meme: writing

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