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geez!! well today for some reason was an extremely gloomy day!! first of all i havent talked to victor cuz he was away fixing some houses his familys owns so new ppl could move in. we like IMed each other even tho both of us had our away messages. we for some reason have now gotten (<< i hate it, "gotten" and "aint" should be real words) into the habit of always saying good mornig when we first IM each other no matter what time of the day it is. well like around 2 i believe i IMed him and just goodmorning, he was away, and then like at 3:30 he IMed ans said good morning cutie as well but this time i was away. man aint he cute. he makes me feel so pretty. i dont know how ive been able to live without him all this time =D well im also gloomy n stuff cuz well i was online and nestor IMs me saying "why didnt u answer the phone a while back" and it was bcuz i just blocked him cuz i just didnt feel like talking to anyone, well i log off after this and i called sandra and well she said she will be coming home this week for sure, but well we'll see. well in the middle of our conversation nestor called and i said i would call him back and i did cuz then sandra said she would call me back in 15 minutes so i called nestor. lol. well it was a hot day and he was at hsi grandmas house so hes like looking for something to drink and well whawt do u know, he finds alcohol and drinks it. he then starts saying that he hates it when i talk about victor to him because i am cheating on him <> well i dont believe and i never will but then he comes over my house like 30 minutes after and i go out being the dumb me that i am and well he starts saying all this dumb stuff and trying to kiss me. i felt sooooooooo bad, but i cannot ever like him again!!!!!!!! i couldnt even give him a hug =/ but then again that was because he soooooo smells like alcohol, but still. he is most likely messing with my head but i dunno. i just hope we stay friends. he kept on saying stuff like "gimme a hug i need a hug from u" i feel so dirty!!!!!!!!! eeeeeewwwwwww!!!! well then i come back home and find that victor isnt online when he always is even though hes "out for the night having fun..." well it makes me feel all lonely, ill just stay online now to see if he comes on when he gets home. ijust need to talk to him. lol. im so gay,but oh well ill just keep waiting....