IIIIIIIiii, am not feeling very happy this week. I want to be able to enjoy the space between seeing james but I'd rather speak to strangers than aquaintences and almost everyone I know is an aquaintence.
I need something to do, but I want to do it for reasons other than the fact that I'm bored here without him.
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Sometimes it annoys me that when I really want something even though its just in me I just can't do it and its my fault, a fault to myself I suppose.