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ever have one of those moments in your life when you realize that your parents weren't the invincible idles that you thought them to be when you were a kid?
my dad is one of those dads that you only really see in the movies... the one everyone likes, the one that fixes all problems, kills the icky spider whenever there was one that scared me, used read me bedtime stories and would come help me fix my flat tire in the dead of winter when i was an hour away... but today when i was downstairs making some dinner, my dad was sitting at the dining room table. i had my back turned and i heard sobing. i turned around and my dad had his head hung really low and his face was really red and he was shaking like when you try to cry privately when you're surrounded by people.
i just asked him what was wrong and he shook his head. i told him that i know that i'm his daughter but he could talk to me about anything if he wanted too. he just said softly, "i don't feel well." and i asked like you dont feel well when you have a cold or the flu? and he said no... he just didn't feel well anymore.
i went over to him and gave him a hug and he sniffled. he just repeated "i dont feel well, em." my dad - the man who when i was younger, i thought could beat up superman and was a better singer than anyone. the only man in my life that has been there for me through thick and thin, the man who i turn to for stability when my mother is too drunk to function, my dad...
but my daddy wasn't ever hurt by anything and now i've seen him cry... its like he IS only human and tonight i realized it. i guess in a way i've known it but tonight it was made clear.
my dad is only human.
my dad is one of those dads that you only really see in the movies... the one everyone likes, the one that fixes all problems, kills the icky spider whenever there was one that scared me, used read me bedtime stories and would come help me fix my flat tire in the dead of winter when i was an hour away... but today when i was downstairs making some dinner, my dad was sitting at the dining room table. i had my back turned and i heard sobing. i turned around and my dad had his head hung really low and his face was really red and he was shaking like when you try to cry privately when you're surrounded by people.
i just asked him what was wrong and he shook his head. i told him that i know that i'm his daughter but he could talk to me about anything if he wanted too. he just said softly, "i don't feel well." and i asked like you dont feel well when you have a cold or the flu? and he said no... he just didn't feel well anymore.
i went over to him and gave him a hug and he sniffled. he just repeated "i dont feel well, em." my dad - the man who when i was younger, i thought could beat up superman and was a better singer than anyone. the only man in my life that has been there for me through thick and thin, the man who i turn to for stability when my mother is too drunk to function, my dad...
but my daddy wasn't ever hurt by anything and now i've seen him cry... its like he IS only human and tonight i realized it. i guess in a way i've known it but tonight it was made clear.
my dad is only human.