Midnight Snacking
I had trouble getting to sleep last night. I don’t know why. I was overcome by feelings of nervousness, with not reason behind it. So proceed to go downstairs and try and fall asleep on the conch while watching TV. Except the nerviness didn’t abate, so I proceeded to gorge myself. I just kept eating and eating, and I didn’t know why. I knew I should stop, but I couldn’t. Finally I did manage to fall asleep. But it’s the eating thing that concerns me. I know I have a problem with overeating sometimes. It’s especially bad when I drink because then the part of my brain that tells me not to shuts off. That doesn’t explain last night though. I’ve chosen to do a sober month this month, so I didn’t have anything to drink last night. I’m not sure if it would have helped or just made the problem worse. Probably worse.
My weight lost has kind of held steady for the last month or so. I was able to get it down from about 153~7 to 140. But it hasn’t progressed any further from there. I would like to get it down to 130 eventually, but right now my goal is just 135. Part of the problem is my hours have been cut back greatly at work, so I’m not as active, but I’m also just eating kind of poorly lately. These late night foraging sessions don’t help me either. Plus, I’ve been sleeping in a lot too. It’s that weird thing where I have trouble waking up if I don’t have a reason to wake up. Meaning I’ll wake up, but I won’t get up so I just fall back asleep. Then I have trouble getting to sleep later that night. But I know that wasn’t the problem last night because I was up around 7am yesterday morning, and my original attempt at sleep was at 11:30. Plus I did both bike and yoga yesterday. I did drink coffee, but that was in the morning so it should have been out of my system by then. I guess it’s just one more manifestations of my insanity.
Job-wise, things are ok. Over that last few weeks, I’ve put out of few applications. I’ve a good feeling about one of them, but I don’t wan to say too much more about it, and I haven’t heard back from it anyway. Still, I could be making better progress, and I need to get on my plan to get volunteer hours with somewhere around here. As for my current job, they haven’t let me go let. My hours have been severely reduced, however. I still think it's only a matter of time until they let me go, so I'm trying to get OK with that idea. Only worked one day last week, and then only for 7 hours. I’m supposed to work 3 days this week, starting tomorrow. We’ll see how many I actually work.
My weight lost has kind of held steady for the last month or so. I was able to get it down from about 153~7 to 140. But it hasn’t progressed any further from there. I would like to get it down to 130 eventually, but right now my goal is just 135. Part of the problem is my hours have been cut back greatly at work, so I’m not as active, but I’m also just eating kind of poorly lately. These late night foraging sessions don’t help me either. Plus, I’ve been sleeping in a lot too. It’s that weird thing where I have trouble waking up if I don’t have a reason to wake up. Meaning I’ll wake up, but I won’t get up so I just fall back asleep. Then I have trouble getting to sleep later that night. But I know that wasn’t the problem last night because I was up around 7am yesterday morning, and my original attempt at sleep was at 11:30. Plus I did both bike and yoga yesterday. I did drink coffee, but that was in the morning so it should have been out of my system by then. I guess it’s just one more manifestations of my insanity.
Job-wise, things are ok. Over that last few weeks, I’ve put out of few applications. I’ve a good feeling about one of them, but I don’t wan to say too much more about it, and I haven’t heard back from it anyway. Still, I could be making better progress, and I need to get on my plan to get volunteer hours with somewhere around here. As for my current job, they haven’t let me go let. My hours have been severely reduced, however. I still think it's only a matter of time until they let me go, so I'm trying to get OK with that idea. Only worked one day last week, and then only for 7 hours. I’m supposed to work 3 days this week, starting tomorrow. We’ll see how many I actually work.