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[pixiebell07]

I hate this feeling!! Why do I get this jealous??? I'm not afraid of losing you, but I despise it when I head that two of my best friends like you as much as I do. God knows, I love my girls to death but I feel threatened by them for some reason. Asher's is so pretty and you've liked her before we even started dating. She is flirtatious by

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[pixiebell07]

Asher's I think you are absolutely beautiful so don't even go about how you aren't:PI knew that you still liked Doug but I'm psycho girlfriend remember?:P If I cared about you reading this, I wouldn't have posted it. I was just so mad that everyone was going around behind MY back saying that they all of a sudden had a crush on Matt and they weren't even going to bother telling me about it in the first place. I love you like a sister and I know I don't need to lose you as well as everyone else in my life. I never thought me and Kristen wouldn't ever speak again but I guess I was wrong. I also hate it whenever someone goes around behind my back saying things and I got hurt and when I get hurt, I write down my feelings no matter what. It's my way of getting over something. I dunno why, but it's been like that ever since I have been a little kid, so there!:P I'm normally not a blunt person but right then I was because of the way I was feeling. That's just the way I was feeling when I wrote that and then I realized that I didn't even care about how clsoe you and Matt were because it didn't matter. I'm so sick of fighting over guys because it's doing but causing me to lose my friends and I refuse to do it anymore. If you thought that your post was going to get rid of me, tough. You're stuck with me sister*angel*. Sometimes it works but it isn't going to work this time because I know we are both better than this and get over it.

I didn't write this because I wanted to talk about you behind your back. When we talked about the same thing on msn and I said I didn't think you were the type to steal people's boyfriends, I said no and I meant it. And I still do. Friends don't do that and I still like to think of us of at least that. If I'm wrong, then tell me because I hate to be forcing myself to be your friend if you don't want to be friends anymore. I know exactly why we never talk anymore because we are both realy busy. I understand that because I have my months when I am really busy. I prolly won't be on much this summer because I have a bunch of stuff to do, with a job and saving for a car and money for when Matt comes down so we can actually go around to places. I really wish we could all get together but I don't think my mom is going to let me go out of the state with some guy they just met to Kentucky lol. Or even Canada. The summer I turn 18 is prolly more when I could do all that stuff. And I would absolutely love to do that because I think it would be a blast.

I know I have a problem with jealousy but it's brand new so I'm just learning how to deal with it. If I remember correctly, you were jealous over people hanging over Doug so you know how it is lol. But, I know that nothing will happen between you and Matt, I was just upset at the moment that I wrote that. Granted, I'm still pissed at Candice because she's still going on about Matt...but she might not for much longer because of something that happened between Tyler(her exboyfriend) and Matt, but I'll just see how it goes. I really don't want any of this to keep lingering between us because it'd be absolutely childish if we did, so I'm willing to just take back everything I said and say I'm really sorry for writing it, if you'll accept my apology.

♥Chelsey

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Oh yes, pretty. Blah! If only you knew me awhile ago. ♥ I'll show ya tonight me, if ya wanna see it. haha! Its in my brothers files, I'm WAY WAY WAY WAY too ashamed of it. :D You wanna know something, I have glasses now.. I wear sometimes when I feel like it. ^o) AND to say more, at school people find me, snobbish 'cause I don't talk that much. Blah! Its the damn truth.

You just need to stop being paranoid, it hasn't got ya anywhere has it? Well, hun! I told ya! =P I'll explain to ya later the crush thing, I don't want the whole world knowing that. If the school computers hasn't blocked myspace, I'll leave a message other then that. I'll tell ya when I get home or you can text my mobile from msn and I'll reply back to ya when I get too the gym after school, Nextel doesn't work in the school so.. Erm. You can choose which one. I shouldn't be back home until like, 3:05 'cause I get out of school at 2:25 and I won't be home until 3:05 because I'm riding home with Taylor. :P She has to drop Sam off as well.. and I'm closer too.. Taylor's house so, I'm the last one to be dropped off. Haha. ♥

I use to be oh soo jealous of his friends. They were influencing him alot and it just didn't make sense. I'm over that stage, I still look at Doug's comments and look at his friends comments to see whats going on, I'll admit that! You NEVER heard me say that. I sit and diss Kristoon and other friends of his. I can't help it, I can't honestly can't.. BUT the good thing is, that my Aunt is taking.. all of us girls help too Canada in the summer. :P Haha. My Aunt is crazy. She's in her fifties and talks about her, sex life. Its WAY wrong.

I'm going to stick with you. I had too.. just tell the truth on how your acting, sorry to say it but its true. =D I just wanted to know how ya felt & I'll forgive ya. I don't hold grudge's or anything. Its mee, I have a horrid conscience that gets to me at times. :D

The bell is about to ring, babe. So I'll talk to ya later. Adios.

P.S. --> I'll finish what I wanna say later.. or talk to ya on msn.

Ashers. ♥

[pixiebell07]

You are too gorgeous:P And it doesn't matter if you act snobby:P People accuse me of doing that too and I don't give a shit^_^. If they don't like it, I tell them to shove it:P.

I'm working on not being as paranoid as I am...it's a new feeling so I'm slowly adjusting to it. I can't wait to hear about the crush thing lol. Or maybe I should be scared, hehe j/k. I've been out of school this whole time and I am bored out of my mind. I've like become an 80's child all of a sudden, like you went through your 60's child phase lol. I'm like listening to Blondie, Pat Benetar, Queen, Jimmy Buffet, Kenny Loggins, and so on and so forth. I know a lot of the songs surprisingly lol.

What do you think I do on Matt's page...I only really look at one person but I'm not gonna say anything cause it'll cause problems lol. But yeah... I look at his comments too but he's apparently not loved by anyone*angel* So I don't worry about that... and when he actually does get comments they are from guys lol. Maybe I should wonder about him hehe.

I'm glad you agreed to just stick with me because you really had no choice^_^ lol. If I start acting like that again, just please tell me because sometimes I do that without even realizing it and I end up hurting people. And I know how you feel with the whole concious thing...I HATE having one because whenever I'm mad at Matt, I feel horrible after and I just want to talk to him. It's crazy and I hate it lol. But I've learned to deal with that too lol. But yeah, I'll talk to you laters!

♥Chelsey