I haven't been on this site...and I've gained like 7 or 8 pounds. I am sooooo disgusted with myself. I can't even believe I let myself get this bad. Its horrible. I am going to lose it though. I'm done eating for the day and I made a schedule for myslef so I start out with 900 cals a day for a few days, then 800 then 700 blah blah blah. So I think ( Read more... )

well, today I did ok. I went on a 2mile walk & the only bad thing I ate was nuts but I didn't eat an extremely huge amount. i did pretty ok. My big challenge is to not lose my control tonight. My worst time of eating is about now. I worked a lot today. I had to be there at 6am :P.....horrible. But I just think of the $!! I'm still 109. The weather ( Read more... )

I ate 2 cookies that were 190m cals each! >:( then my car died so I got home pissed and ended up having pasta and a pop tart and yeah--today was a bust. I'll do better tomorrow...day 2 or 3 is always so hard. I was all motivated too! I am pissed !!!!

I had 9 hr work day...I never ate b4 i left and I didn't eat anything but a little black coffee and water. When I came home my mom made me some pasta and a small salad. I am upset about that. I honestly can't say no....she already comments on how skinny I am and if i didn't eat dinner she'd freak out & start to ask me about everything I eat & just ( Read more... )

Week starting: 1 /6/06
Last Weight: _110___lbs...109.5
Goal Weight: __100__lbs
Last Week's Goals: What went well? I got sick
2. Last Week's Goals: What went wrong? I didn't watch myself..I ate w/e I felt like
3. This Week's Goals
lose 5 pounds

***Weigh-Day: Friday the 12th***

I'm like 110 now. I don't feel so bad. I am going to start doing sit-ups again and other stuff. I had a salad and 1/2 of a nutragrain bar. I also had a cookie. I don't care that I didn't start out that good today. I am just going to finish off the day better. I had a fun New Years & managed to not get trashed which was a major accomplishment & a ( Read more... )

i feel horrible right now. I just saw these pictures of my exbf on myspace and we dated so long ago but I still fucking like him and I hate that I do ...its so pathetic. I am so lonely right now. I feel like I'm stuck in this shitty place and I've felt this way for so long and its all within me and I'm so scared I won't ever get out of this ( Read more... )

I just got over a throw-up bug and lost 5 1/2 pounds. Yay....so now it'll be even easier to get to 103/100. xmas was ok. I ate a lot...but hey its xmas. I still feel like shit all I've eaten today was toast and some ginger ale. I hope by tomorrow I'm 108 or something. My head hurts. I have the hardest time getting to below 109 1/5 ( Read more... )

"And when I'm lying in my bed ( Read more... )

I have been doing ok since monday. I started work on Mon and it was good because I didn't have any parents around trying to make me eat. Then I had class so I didn't eat at all. I have finals coming and I'm freaking out! I have my first final on Friday and I'm working tomorrow all day and Friday all day...so my study time is practically nothing. ( Read more... )