Finally Sinking In
So the summer has been all around a pretty okay one. My job sucks but I only have about a month of that left. When I've had time off I've kept myself busy helping Alyce with random tasks, playing WoW at Greg's or taking walks or trying to make a little garden. Also, I've gotten to hang out with Greg and some of his friends a few times which has been fun.
I've been rather more depressed than usual though lately. Although I am very excited about starting school, it has really begun to sink in that I'll never be going back to Colby. As the concept becomes more comprehensible, I become more sad. I already miss everyone and everything so much. It scares me to think how many people I'll probably never see again.
This is compounded by the fact that my family has decided to move. To Kansas. So basically, I will hardly ever see them anymore, either. I know I was the one who moved away first, but only to Vermont, not too far. I planned to come back home more frequently during the school year because then I'll have weekends off. I am certainly over-reacting, but I feel pretty abandoned. Vermont hasn't even started to feel like home yet, and now the only place I had in the back of my mind to fall back on is disappearing soon.
So that's my lame post for the day. Really it isn't all so bad, this is just a big deal to me right now. I also feel really restless, which is not unusual. I wish I could get a job as a nomad. =P I am aware that being upset at not having a home contradicts with my wanderlust, but that's the way it is. I guess I just need to get over it.
I've been rather more depressed than usual though lately. Although I am very excited about starting school, it has really begun to sink in that I'll never be going back to Colby. As the concept becomes more comprehensible, I become more sad. I already miss everyone and everything so much. It scares me to think how many people I'll probably never see again.
This is compounded by the fact that my family has decided to move. To Kansas. So basically, I will hardly ever see them anymore, either. I know I was the one who moved away first, but only to Vermont, not too far. I planned to come back home more frequently during the school year because then I'll have weekends off. I am certainly over-reacting, but I feel pretty abandoned. Vermont hasn't even started to feel like home yet, and now the only place I had in the back of my mind to fall back on is disappearing soon.
So that's my lame post for the day. Really it isn't all so bad, this is just a big deal to me right now. I also feel really restless, which is not unusual. I wish I could get a job as a nomad. =P I am aware that being upset at not having a home contradicts with my wanderlust, but that's the way it is. I guess I just need to get over it.