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alright kids...well, it's the eve of my departure for dayton, ohio, the beloved home for the wgi championships. i have already finished packing (i really think it's a first for me to actually be packed this early. i'm usually packing about 20 minutes before we leave). i left practice tonight in a great mood. i was happy. i still couldn't believe that it was my last practice at sacred heart. i'm going to miss spinning in that school. after all these years i think i have those walls and every window's view memorized. that window pane that is in the front on the 50, it has gotten it's money worth from my performances to it over the years, and i left it with a real good one tonight. i feel good about the season and color guard now. it really has me questioning myself. is this really the last show i'm going to perform? is April 9th, 2005 really be the last time i will perform? i've told myself so many things and made myself so many promises. but i really still have mixed feelings about everything. i really wish i knew what i was getting into when i joined some 12 or 13 years ago. color guard is a cult and we all get a little help, but admitting this is only half the battle.