going somewhere...
my second entry for one day im on a roll..lolololololoo
well im not tired..so i decided im going out cuz yeah dont feel like being home..ill prolly only go out to eat then come back lolol..well yeah im waiting for my ride so yeah im sitting here till he gets here.. havnt hung out with david in a long time so yeah he said hedd buy me n lillian food so here we go..todd said again hed come over if i wasnt sleeping LOLOLOL instead he went out to eat with sean and a girl funny what love well im giving up..im gonna tell him next time were face to face im giving up..he can come over any time he wants spend the night whatever we can have fun whatever but im giving up on him hes like u want me to come over im like noooooooooooooo hes like yeah ok i was like theres tomorrow tuesday everyday hes like yeah there is so yeah...im done sexually with him anything relationship wise im done..i cant take it anymore..he does whatever he wants i dont ask and im not about to..but yeah ill c how i feel tomorrow but iv been feeling like this for a little while now so yeah my mind hasnt changed except worst..man i pick the ones who know what love is man..what a winner i am..LOLOLOLOLOLOL im not even crying mad or anything when he says i love you i just say it cuz im not gonna fight with him im pregnant with his kid and yeah thats y im around and im done..bno im not gonna go sleep around and i wont ever do that but im not sticking to one guy after him..screw that this love stuff is for the birds..it seems like i find the winners in the beginning oo i love you then its like ok well ill see when i feel like it well whatever then dont get mad when i dont answer or am not home when u come over..he can come n see lillian whever he wants and see the baby whenever he wants to hang out fine but im done with everything else..i know i dont need sex so yeah im good in a year ill be even better..yeah ill have 2 kids but hey life shits on us sometimes..and i think im stopping here i said i wanted more but i just relized im never gonna find the right one so yeah ill just find the wrong ones to have fun with..i dont need a guy and i dont want a guy just guys to go have fun with..hey they cant be scared of kids cuz were not together were just having fun doing fun stuff so hey..but yeah hes here so yeah prolly gonna go get something to eat then coming home...friday is the womens expo me n christine r going..weve been going since 2001 each year..here adds another one..and another primise my mom made to lillian but whatever...people make alot of promises i see and brake them right in half but whatever...steph called me ooo geeze drama drama drama..she went to jail and shes like anytime u come into subway ill give u free food im like yeah free food lololol...and ill only live a few blocks away lolololol...FREE FOOD...im all jittery lololololol...i think tomorrow me n donna are gonna go do something that way im not sitting here bored and shes not bored...but tuesday im gonna start packing to move on out of here...ok im going now..hungry hungry hungry..i remade my journal a couple days ago how cute and hoe scary lololol...geeze my boobs are enlarging lolololololol weird i know...
well im not tired..so i decided im going out cuz yeah dont feel like being home..ill prolly only go out to eat then come back lolol..well yeah im waiting for my ride so yeah im sitting here till he gets here.. havnt hung out with david in a long time so yeah he said hedd buy me n lillian food so here we go..todd said again hed come over if i wasnt sleeping LOLOLOL instead he went out to eat with sean and a girl funny what love well im giving up..im gonna tell him next time were face to face im giving up..he can come over any time he wants spend the night whatever we can have fun whatever but im giving up on him hes like u want me to come over im like noooooooooooooo hes like yeah ok i was like theres tomorrow tuesday everyday hes like yeah there is so yeah...im done sexually with him anything relationship wise im done..i cant take it anymore..he does whatever he wants i dont ask and im not about to..but yeah ill c how i feel tomorrow but iv been feeling like this for a little while now so yeah my mind hasnt changed except worst..man i pick the ones who know what love is man..what a winner i am..LOLOLOLOLOLOL im not even crying mad or anything when he says i love you i just say it cuz im not gonna fight with him im pregnant with his kid and yeah thats y im around and im done..bno im not gonna go sleep around and i wont ever do that but im not sticking to one guy after him..screw that this love stuff is for the birds..it seems like i find the winners in the beginning oo i love you then its like ok well ill see when i feel like it well whatever then dont get mad when i dont answer or am not home when u come over..he can come n see lillian whever he wants and see the baby whenever he wants to hang out fine but im done with everything else..i know i dont need sex so yeah im good in a year ill be even better..yeah ill have 2 kids but hey life shits on us sometimes..and i think im stopping here i said i wanted more but i just relized im never gonna find the right one so yeah ill just find the wrong ones to have fun with..i dont need a guy and i dont want a guy just guys to go have fun with..hey they cant be scared of kids cuz were not together were just having fun doing fun stuff so hey..but yeah hes here so yeah prolly gonna go get something to eat then coming home...friday is the womens expo me n christine r going..weve been going since 2001 each year..here adds another one..and another primise my mom made to lillian but whatever...people make alot of promises i see and brake them right in half but whatever...steph called me ooo geeze drama drama drama..she went to jail and shes like anytime u come into subway ill give u free food im like yeah free food lololol...and ill only live a few blocks away lolololol...FREE FOOD...im all jittery lololololol...i think tomorrow me n donna are gonna go do something that way im not sitting here bored and shes not bored...but tuesday im gonna start packing to move on out of here...ok im going now..hungry hungry hungry..i remade my journal a couple days ago how cute and hoe scary lololol...geeze my boobs are enlarging lolololololol weird i know...