LOL
It's hilarious when you get someone coming up to you asking, "are you happy here?"
Of course I don't expect people who don't make the effort get to know me personally to understand my intepretation of 'happiness'. Heck, I'm sure even some of my closest people would have a hard time identifying the right cocktail to dizzying happines.
But hitting the nail on the head might not be so easy. There are factors that come into play and coming halfway into my third year with the company, the excitement tends to swing to strain and back again almost regularly.
Appraisal time is coming up. I suck at these things... talking about myself, selling myself like a prime cut instead of the bull's eyeballs, isn't something I'm accustomed to. Humility is a trait which I cannot discard although playfully, I will put it aside. But at the same time, you just have to believe before you can sell.
Perhaps this year hasn't been great. Placed in a managerial position, I don't think I fared as well as I have previously.
Some people fight their way to the top, making it to the highest ranks as commanders of their fleets. But what about people like myself who don't see the appeal in being that high up? I enjoyed my time as a reporter/journalist/photographer. I was the lord of what I do best. But command? O_o Not really my forte. Nor can I force myself into believing that at this point in time, I can.
I'm not a hopeless leader. When it boils down to it, the whips come out and I WILL see my ship sail. But the feeling isn't pleasant for me. I find myself happier just doing my own thing or asked to done something and I would do it.
I know it makes it sound like I like being a complete and utter slave but the way I see it, it just doesn't carry so much responsibility. I have my job and I do my job. 'Nuff said.
Am I happy? *shrugs* Are you?
Of course I don't expect people who don't make the effort get to know me personally to understand my intepretation of 'happiness'. Heck, I'm sure even some of my closest people would have a hard time identifying the right cocktail to dizzying happines.
But hitting the nail on the head might not be so easy. There are factors that come into play and coming halfway into my third year with the company, the excitement tends to swing to strain and back again almost regularly.
Appraisal time is coming up. I suck at these things... talking about myself, selling myself like a prime cut instead of the bull's eyeballs, isn't something I'm accustomed to. Humility is a trait which I cannot discard although playfully, I will put it aside. But at the same time, you just have to believe before you can sell.
Perhaps this year hasn't been great. Placed in a managerial position, I don't think I fared as well as I have previously.
Some people fight their way to the top, making it to the highest ranks as commanders of their fleets. But what about people like myself who don't see the appeal in being that high up? I enjoyed my time as a reporter/journalist/photographer. I was the lord of what I do best. But command? O_o Not really my forte. Nor can I force myself into believing that at this point in time, I can.
I'm not a hopeless leader. When it boils down to it, the whips come out and I WILL see my ship sail. But the feeling isn't pleasant for me. I find myself happier just doing my own thing or asked to done something and I would do it.
I know it makes it sound like I like being a complete and utter slave but the way I see it, it just doesn't carry so much responsibility. I have my job and I do my job. 'Nuff said.
Am I happy? *shrugs* Are you?