it's good to be in love (every color goes where you do.)

[phoenix_moth]

Sometimes, like right now, I'm not angry.
I'm not hurt.
I'm not pissed off or anything.
I'm just sad.

I love her so much, but she's like a sister. A best friend I wish to god I'd had when I needed one most. She's the kind of person I would have given anything to have by my side, especially at times like last year.

I miss him so much.

The baby just crawled over and stood beside me and gave me a hug, and now she's making silly faces and tickling my ear.
 I wonder if she can sense that I needed that.

I don't mean to hurt her. I know she loves me. I don't want her to hurt anymore.... I just want her to be happy.
If there were anybody to answer me if I prayed, I'd beg them for her to be happy.
I wonder if she realizes I care.