Rehab VI: the girl's got reason (they all got reasons)
I feel so sick right now. I really feel like I'll throw up.
last night i got on my toolxoxphile aim account and i imed daemon
and i just...screamed.
at the top of my lungs.
for about five or ten minutes, i screamed and screamed and screamed. i think i must have used "fucking" about 50 times.
and daemon was actualy really funny: "WHAT DID I DO, EPI? WHY ARE YOU SO UPSET?"
over and over.
i didn't explain. didn't felt i needed to.
i just kept screaming.
told him he's off my gaia list and to leave me alone.
i had the tiniest prick of conscience when he asked me to explain what he did, because it was like when i told him about the month thing and he flipped out and didn''t let me explain.
but of course, there is a difference here
during the time we were 'together' i was not fucking everybody on gaia.
i had him
and i had my boyfriend.
the end.
and i told him long beforehand that lyle and i were together, that i had no intention of breaking up with him, etc. etc. so his decision to stay with me was his own and he was perfectly capable of walking away, blah blah, as in i in no way made it seem like he was my fuck buddy since I actually you know, cared about him and shit.
so for him to accuse me of using him was way out of bounds.
and so yeah, when i was screaming myself exhausted without even opening my mouth i did momentarily feel bad, and the more i screamed the sicker i felt because that just seems to be the effect daemon has now.
and then
and THEN
he's like
"you're being a brat, epi."
ohohoho
and i was like
I'm being a brat?!
then i REALLY started screaming.
anyway
he finally pulled this shit on me:
"i don't know what i did but i'm going to let you cool off for a while.
i love you, epi."
then signed off.
which pissed me off becuase how many times did i say DON'T FUCKING SAY THAT TO ME ANYMORE ?
i mean really.
anyway
i'm just waiting for him to go to zack and tell him how i went apeshit
and then zack will come and want to know why i went apeshit on his little loverboy
and of course that will be exactly why i went apeshit. XD.
anyway
Lyleeeee will be home around four, so if I get done with senior pictures early I come home to my lily and we do married happy people stuff like EAT FOOD THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU SICK.
<3.
lyle
thank you for not making me nauseated.
last night i got on my toolxoxphile aim account and i imed daemon
and i just...screamed.
at the top of my lungs.
for about five or ten minutes, i screamed and screamed and screamed. i think i must have used "fucking" about 50 times.
and daemon was actualy really funny: "WHAT DID I DO, EPI? WHY ARE YOU SO UPSET?"
over and over.
i didn't explain. didn't felt i needed to.
i just kept screaming.
told him he's off my gaia list and to leave me alone.
i had the tiniest prick of conscience when he asked me to explain what he did, because it was like when i told him about the month thing and he flipped out and didn''t let me explain.
but of course, there is a difference here
during the time we were 'together' i was not fucking everybody on gaia.
i had him
and i had my boyfriend.
the end.
and i told him long beforehand that lyle and i were together, that i had no intention of breaking up with him, etc. etc. so his decision to stay with me was his own and he was perfectly capable of walking away, blah blah, as in i in no way made it seem like he was my fuck buddy since I actually you know, cared about him and shit.
so for him to accuse me of using him was way out of bounds.
and so yeah, when i was screaming myself exhausted without even opening my mouth i did momentarily feel bad, and the more i screamed the sicker i felt because that just seems to be the effect daemon has now.
and then
and THEN
he's like
"you're being a brat, epi."
ohohoho
and i was like
I'm being a brat?!
then i REALLY started screaming.
anyway
he finally pulled this shit on me:
"i don't know what i did but i'm going to let you cool off for a while.
i love you, epi."
then signed off.
which pissed me off becuase how many times did i say DON'T FUCKING SAY THAT TO ME ANYMORE ?
i mean really.
anyway
i'm just waiting for him to go to zack and tell him how i went apeshit
and then zack will come and want to know why i went apeshit on his little loverboy
and of course that will be exactly why i went apeshit. XD.
anyway
Lyleeeee will be home around four, so if I get done with senior pictures early I come home to my lily and we do married happy people stuff like EAT FOOD THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU SICK.
<3.
lyle
thank you for not making me nauseated.