Rehab IV.2: when you crown king nothing

[phoenix_moth]

"Hey,  Zack. What are youuuu doing?"
"Seducing Dae."

why does it seem like he put all of this on me as if I'm the whore, yet EVERYBODY I TALK TO IS FUCKING HIM.

that
that is why i'm so mad, that's the reason. because what i thought was special, what he made seem so special, was apparently not.

I remember when I told Julie I didn't think Dae would ever want to be around me again and she said "Well, he'll probably find somebody else to fuck. You know how he is."

and i thought "no, I don't, actually. but thanks for telling me."

Yeah. Thanks, Julie.
You saved me from killing myself out of guilt over something that OBVIOUSLY DIDN'T MEAN SHIT.

i 
really am growing to hate whatever it is about gaia that makes me end up with people like this
i mean, i jeopardized my relationship with lyle
for a guy who claimed that i broke his heart so bad he didn't want to live anymore
for a guy who claimed that he LOVED me so fucking much
for a guy who claimed all this shit
and all that time
he was making it seem like i had just HURT HIM SO BAD  and he hadn't done anything in return  when really he's fucking his way across gaia ON FOUR DIFFERENT ACCOUNTS AT THE SAME TIME?

WOW, DAEMON.
WAY TO FUCKING GO.
I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF INSIDE OVER YOU.
for NOTHING.

Lyle.
you and i
are getting married
and that's the end of it
do youunderstand?