will to live?
im am so drained i barely i have the will to live. idk what i want. i know who i want an i cant have him. this makes me really numb(an lonely). thats what i feel like right now numb and lonely. i am typing really slow, an i have a really slow reaction time. this isnt fun considering im gonna b home alone 2morrow. i know i really need 2 find a guy. cause thats all i think about. its really sad 2. but thats me boy crazy, now if only i could find a guy crazy bout me. i have found 2 guys thatd b perfect 4 me. one barely talks 2 me lives close by an is in love. the other would date me lives far away an is in love. so im fucked eather way. idk what to say anymore. theres something my minds trying to tell me an i cant figure out what it is. i need 2 figuer this out an soon~LIL :( < / 3