i am so very overdue for a post, and i am so very overdue on calling all of you, and i'm sorry. i'm trying to get caught up these days
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Hey Phil! Thanks for checking in. I'm in Seattle right now, watching the Ring Cycle, but am heading east soon and we should definitely meet up.
Damn, sounds like you were dealing with the same thing that I was (and still am, sorta). What's up with post-college depression? Very real and very scary shit. Don't have a number of my own yet, but if you can wait a week or so, you can probably catch me at home. Send me an email to jaywalt at gmail and we'll talk more.
I need to come up to Philly to check out grad school possibilities, so...
Jon, I remember when Marta came and visited like 6 months ago and I was feeling all shitty about graduating and going to a shitty grad school and not living up to my potential...bla bla bla, and then Marta says at one point, "you know I just realized, you're the only one of us who has an actual job." She meant of her, me, Ben Shirley-Quirk, and Mike Mastman who were all in the room at the time. It made me realize that the first year of life is hard for everyone...that it just takes a fucking long time to adjust and that it can be depressing at times, but the best thing to do is just take it one day at a time. Anyways...your comment reminded me of that since I've certainly been in a really terrible place up until maybe 2-3 months ago. Oh, and don't sweat Marta's negligence. She called me like a week ago and we talked for a long time, and she was super excited about her new boy but she was also super super excited about you coming to visit and mentioned it several times. You and I both know she's flaky as hell so I wouldn't take
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Totally, Forest. That post was really just me venting. I feel much better now, actually, and things are looking up a bit. Part of it's just getting your mind to the right setting for the experience you're having, y'know? That goes for depression and hanging with Marta both. If you keep thinking "things would be so great if only X," life continues to suck, because X may not ever happen
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I sooo know what you mean about "getting your mind to the right setting for the experience" and actually, I was thinking when I read your post originally how much it reminded me of all my issues with the Marta here who I was dating. She was (believe it or not) even flakier than the Marta you and I know. Like you, I had all these really awsome things planned for us to do and then when it didn't happen, it totally destroyed my expectations and made me really self-conscious. I was really hurt cuz I thought she was avoiding me and then I left this intense message on her voice mail and she called me back and was like, "what the hell are you talking about?! I've just been really busy!"
Yes, come visit me in the "nation's capitol" (ha!) Is your ex-g/f named Valentine or Valentina? One of my closest friends here is named Valentina...it'd be weird if she were your ex-g/f.
No one in particular. I'm catching a ride back to the alpaca ranch (outside Richmond) with my aunt Teri, who I'm going to try to meet in Santa Fe. The question is just whether I head straight home once I get there or head up to DC first.
hey, my man. i've been trying to get ahold of marta, so maybe when i do we can chat then. i've definitely missed you.
the most fucked up thing about the whole "clinical depression" thing for me is that i had no clue. i didn't think i was emotionally in bad sorts at all, i just kind of roll with the punches, and i tend not to admit my own stress levels. so i was basically exhibiting every physical and behavorial symptom of depression, but not neccesarily the classic mental and emotional symptoms.
my brother is moving to asheville this month, so i will probably be down there at some point helping him move.
Totally the same situation with me. I was active and thought I was happy, but then I started exhibiting all these physical signs, having panic attacks and the like and feeling like I was getting sick when there was nothing wrong.
I'd love to hang out with you in Asheville (what a great town!). Let's talk later and see what we can work out.
Damn, sounds like you were dealing with the same thing that I was (and still am, sorta). What's up with post-college depression? Very real and very scary shit. Don't have a number of my own yet, but if you can wait a week or so, you can probably catch me at home. Send me an email to jaywalt at gmail and we'll talk more.
I need to come up to Philly to check out grad school possibilities, so...
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Yes, come visit me in the "nation's capitol" (ha!) Is your ex-g/f named Valentine or Valentina? One of my closest friends here is named Valentina...it'd be weird if she were your ex-g/f.
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the most fucked up thing about the whole "clinical depression" thing for me is that i had no clue. i didn't think i was emotionally in bad sorts at all, i just kind of roll with the punches, and i tend not to admit my own stress levels. so i was basically exhibiting every physical and behavorial symptom of depression, but not neccesarily the classic mental and emotional symptoms.
my brother is moving to asheville this month, so i will probably be down there at some point helping him move.
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I'd love to hang out with you in Asheville (what a great town!). Let's talk later and see what we can work out.
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