Vacations and lack thereof.
So, I was planning to go with wifey and little Nate when they go to Alabama to visit wifey's parents next month. She's not out to them; they are very homophobic, and have said they would disown a child who was LGBTQ. They know me as a very good friend to my wifey, and they know that Nate calls me momo. And they actually really like me a lot, but as I said, they don't know the true relationship between wifey and me. I was fine with being closeted while visiting; not ideal, but I can handle it. But I'm worried how my dog Macy would handle the very long car ride, because she gets horribly car sick, even with dramamine or benadryl. Leaving her home with ambigu-sweetie isn't an option, because he works over 8 hours a day, and Macy needs crated when home alone, and I don't want her crated for such a long period 5 days a week. Also, I really didn't want to just leave my garden to die, and ambigu-sweetie probably wouldn't tend to it very well, honestly. I could trust him to take care of my 3 cats, and that's about it. And 4 days are going to be spent with wifey's sister Teresa, and she's really intimidating and unhealthy, and so are her adult children, so I didn't really want to stay over with them. What really sealed the deal on me deciding not to go to Alabama, though, is now the trip has been extended to roughly 3 weeks. I really don't want to be away for 3 weeks, at all. 2 weeks would have been fine, but not 3 weeks.
So, I am going to stay home. I wish it would be a lot of time to myself, and it will be, mostly! But ambigu-sweetie will also be here, when he's not at work, and when he's not playing video games or watching stuff on Netflix.
It does kinda suck that I'm not going, because I hate for wifey to have to wrangle Nate mostly by herself. Plus, I feel really guilty because I know Nate is going to miss me. And then I feel even guiltier, because I'm kinda looking forward to things being quiet, and less messy, and not having to worry that Nate will get upset and hit me or throw something at me (he has been struggling with extra aggression since the structure of school is done for the Summer). Of course, I'm sure once Nate's been gone for 2 days, I'm going to be desperate for him to be home. Also, wifey is probably going to make a day trip to Panama City Beach in Florida, and I've never really been to the Ocean, and wanted to go.
Wifey said we can eventually try to save up to drive to Myrtle Beach for a couple of days/nights, though. First, though, we're saving up for our extremely belated honeymoon, which we want to have at a cabin in Hocking Hills, here in Ohio. The belated honeymoon is a goal for an anniversary. This year will be our 3rd handfasting anniversary, but we probably won't have enough money saved up by September (we have about 25 dollars saved up, and need 200 total). So, hopefully next year?
On a much sadder note, one of wifey's cousins has died by suicide. Wifey didn't know her very well, and hadn't seen her since she was a small child. The cousin was 36, a veteran of Iraq, and a 911 operator. It's hitting wifey pretty hard, because even though she barely remembers this cousin, the cousin was so young, and suicide is never timely, of course. And she's really worried about her aunt and her mom, because they are not in great health. I didn't know this woman at all, but I'm so sorry she didn't feel there was another option for her. I hope and pray she is at peace now, and I hope and pray for anyone with suicidal thoughts to seek help. It really can get better, and help is out there. There are people who care, including me. RIP Carrie.
So, I am going to stay home. I wish it would be a lot of time to myself, and it will be, mostly! But ambigu-sweetie will also be here, when he's not at work, and when he's not playing video games or watching stuff on Netflix.
It does kinda suck that I'm not going, because I hate for wifey to have to wrangle Nate mostly by herself. Plus, I feel really guilty because I know Nate is going to miss me. And then I feel even guiltier, because I'm kinda looking forward to things being quiet, and less messy, and not having to worry that Nate will get upset and hit me or throw something at me (he has been struggling with extra aggression since the structure of school is done for the Summer). Of course, I'm sure once Nate's been gone for 2 days, I'm going to be desperate for him to be home. Also, wifey is probably going to make a day trip to Panama City Beach in Florida, and I've never really been to the Ocean, and wanted to go.
Wifey said we can eventually try to save up to drive to Myrtle Beach for a couple of days/nights, though. First, though, we're saving up for our extremely belated honeymoon, which we want to have at a cabin in Hocking Hills, here in Ohio. The belated honeymoon is a goal for an anniversary. This year will be our 3rd handfasting anniversary, but we probably won't have enough money saved up by September (we have about 25 dollars saved up, and need 200 total). So, hopefully next year?
On a much sadder note, one of wifey's cousins has died by suicide. Wifey didn't know her very well, and hadn't seen her since she was a small child. The cousin was 36, a veteran of Iraq, and a 911 operator. It's hitting wifey pretty hard, because even though she barely remembers this cousin, the cousin was so young, and suicide is never timely, of course. And she's really worried about her aunt and her mom, because they are not in great health. I didn't know this woman at all, but I'm so sorry she didn't feel there was another option for her. I hope and pray she is at peace now, and I hope and pray for anyone with suicidal thoughts to seek help. It really can get better, and help is out there. There are people who care, including me. RIP Carrie.