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July 29th, 11:29 pm easten standard time. From here on in we shoot without a script. See if anything comes of it instead of my old shit.
First shot Jessica, sitting on the living room couch.
I have been such a busy bee these past few weeks. I spend almost every day with Gavin<3 and when I am not with him, I am studying. Last week Gavin McGavers, Sam, The mother, Fred, and I all went to see the musical Hair. Twas good I enjoyed it. For those of you who are not as cultured in the fine arts, Hair has total nudity in it. Like im talking butt ass nekkid men and women prancing and dancing around on stage. It also has the use of marajana on stage. Sam hated the show for what it stood for. But I am less uptight I spose. That is my moms era, I like seeing how it was when she grew up. Gives me a little bit of insight into why she is the way she is.
So the next night The mother, Sam and I went to see Idina Mendel in concert at parker play house. OMG she is amazing. Her voice is spectacular. She literally sang a haftorah and it gave me the chills it was so beautiful. If I could sing like that, I would never stop.
So last night Gavin and I had a "talk" about where this is going and we decided that we wanted to make this (in his words) "permanent". I thought it was an interesting way to put it. But I do want it to be permanent. I have never felt someone was so perfect for me before. For instance, neither of us knew how to bring up the subject of "is this a relationship" I had told my mom I was going to wait until the 6th of August because that was 1 months since our first date. So yesterday after we had the talk I asked him if it had been bothering him, and he said yeah and he planned to talk to me about it on the 6th. First of all I was shocked he remembered the date. Second of all. aww. We truly are of one mind.
Tonight he came over after work and we went to the dog park with my fams, then we went over to Petco to play with some puppies. We like puppy shopping even if no one is getting one. It is like those chicken soup books. Good for the soul. Then we dropped our dogs off at home and went back out to publics. We all got salads from my new greenwise publics and they were amazing. Gavin of course ran off to surprise me with flowers and my mom with wine and key lime pie. I swear if he werent mine I would gag at how corney he is. But I eat that kinda shit up. I spent 6 years trying to get Matt to be even a little bit thoughtful. And Gavin has thoughtfullness to spare.
I was thinking about the fact tonight that I have always been told "there s no such thing as perfect" It was this statement that lead me to stay with Matt. Despite his abusive behavior, and my feeling I wasn't loved. Because I KNEW no one was perfect so I might as well take the flaws I know. Well I regect these statments, I think perfection DOES exist. I know Gavin is perfect for me. Weither things work out forever or not. I know its a perfect fit. The timing might be kinda shitty, since I am going away to law school in a year, but lets just hope by then he has fallen in love soo far that he will follow me to the ends of the earth:)
So that's what I have been up to. I took another practice LSAT and my score was 155. Not too good, but its only the second practice. A bunch of people went down..so I guess i can be happy I at least had a positive result. The work load is getting rediculous though, we are not getting through enough in class and shes just giving it all for homework. Its is to the point that my working 3 hours a day isnt getting it done. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by all the work. Tomorrow I am waking up early to get 2 or 3 hours in take a break then work for about 2 or 3 more hours before I go to the gym then out with G. Tomorrow is Cheesecake's 30th annaversery thing where all there cheese cake is 1.50 a slice. We are going to dinner then going to pick up the pottery we painted last week and paint something new.
As for how I am feeling, I am happy as can be. I feel like im in a really good place right now. My life is in control. I no longer feel like I am stuck waiting for life to start or to get better, which is how I often felt being with Matt. So yay for me, and lets just hope everything stays this way!
I hope everyone is feeling as good as I am.
:)
First shot Jessica, sitting on the living room couch.
I have been such a busy bee these past few weeks. I spend almost every day with Gavin<3 and when I am not with him, I am studying. Last week Gavin McGavers, Sam, The mother, Fred, and I all went to see the musical Hair. Twas good I enjoyed it. For those of you who are not as cultured in the fine arts, Hair has total nudity in it. Like im talking butt ass nekkid men and women prancing and dancing around on stage. It also has the use of marajana on stage. Sam hated the show for what it stood for. But I am less uptight I spose. That is my moms era, I like seeing how it was when she grew up. Gives me a little bit of insight into why she is the way she is.
So the next night The mother, Sam and I went to see Idina Mendel in concert at parker play house. OMG she is amazing. Her voice is spectacular. She literally sang a haftorah and it gave me the chills it was so beautiful. If I could sing like that, I would never stop.
So last night Gavin and I had a "talk" about where this is going and we decided that we wanted to make this (in his words) "permanent". I thought it was an interesting way to put it. But I do want it to be permanent. I have never felt someone was so perfect for me before. For instance, neither of us knew how to bring up the subject of "is this a relationship" I had told my mom I was going to wait until the 6th of August because that was 1 months since our first date. So yesterday after we had the talk I asked him if it had been bothering him, and he said yeah and he planned to talk to me about it on the 6th. First of all I was shocked he remembered the date. Second of all. aww. We truly are of one mind.
Tonight he came over after work and we went to the dog park with my fams, then we went over to Petco to play with some puppies. We like puppy shopping even if no one is getting one. It is like those chicken soup books. Good for the soul. Then we dropped our dogs off at home and went back out to publics. We all got salads from my new greenwise publics and they were amazing. Gavin of course ran off to surprise me with flowers and my mom with wine and key lime pie. I swear if he werent mine I would gag at how corney he is. But I eat that kinda shit up. I spent 6 years trying to get Matt to be even a little bit thoughtful. And Gavin has thoughtfullness to spare.
I was thinking about the fact tonight that I have always been told "there s no such thing as perfect" It was this statement that lead me to stay with Matt. Despite his abusive behavior, and my feeling I wasn't loved. Because I KNEW no one was perfect so I might as well take the flaws I know. Well I regect these statments, I think perfection DOES exist. I know Gavin is perfect for me. Weither things work out forever or not. I know its a perfect fit. The timing might be kinda shitty, since I am going away to law school in a year, but lets just hope by then he has fallen in love soo far that he will follow me to the ends of the earth:)
So that's what I have been up to. I took another practice LSAT and my score was 155. Not too good, but its only the second practice. A bunch of people went down..so I guess i can be happy I at least had a positive result. The work load is getting rediculous though, we are not getting through enough in class and shes just giving it all for homework. Its is to the point that my working 3 hours a day isnt getting it done. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by all the work. Tomorrow I am waking up early to get 2 or 3 hours in take a break then work for about 2 or 3 more hours before I go to the gym then out with G. Tomorrow is Cheesecake's 30th annaversery thing where all there cheese cake is 1.50 a slice. We are going to dinner then going to pick up the pottery we painted last week and paint something new.
As for how I am feeling, I am happy as can be. I feel like im in a really good place right now. My life is in control. I no longer feel like I am stuck waiting for life to start or to get better, which is how I often felt being with Matt. So yay for me, and lets just hope everything stays this way!
I hope everyone is feeling as good as I am.
:)