My head is saying, foooooool forget him. My heart is saying, dont let gooooo.
Well hello out there in live journal land. I think it is well enough time for an update on my life. Here I sit before you, 3 months sober. By sober of course I am refering to my long time (6 years) addiction to Matture. I have been Matture free for a while now and I am doing great. I have not, however, been Matt free. It seems like I cannot avoid them. And contrary to popular belief, I do not only date guys named Matt. But I did date one after Matture. But despite the fact we really liked each other, it just didnt fit. We were both very strong personalities and he resented my arguing and I resented his resentment. So after three weeks of playing with him we agreed to be friends. It was good for me though, to realize there are guys out there who aren't Matture, who I can feel comfortable with.
So now comes the good news. I am currently dating someone that does not go by the name Matt, Mathew, Mathieu or any dirivitive of the name Matt. His name is Gavin. OOOO Gavin. Superrr Hot, South African (amazing accent), Greatest personality ever. I can't say enough good things about him. It has been three weeks of seeing each other every other day and I havn't found anything about him I do not like. My sister even said "He is the hottest guy you have ever dated, he could like pass as a hot guy out in a bar" I cracked up at this because i am imfamous for my "taste" in guys. But trust me, Gavin is a nerd at heart. So things are going well, he just left a bit ago. We went out to dinner with my mom, sister, and family friends and he passed with flying colors. Then we came home and watched Guliver's travels downstairs. But he was trying hard to get me not to focus on the movie. But we agreed to take things slow, since I don't want to fuck things up by moving too fast and then feeling like he doesnt stand up to Matture, simply because I am not comfotable with him.
We are having a good time and he is adorable beyond words. I just feel like it is doomed before it really even starts because I want to go to school in NY, and I dont know if he would want to move there...Not really even close to being at the stage to bring that up. But i can't help looking ahead.
As far as other things in my life are concerned, I am studying for the Lsat whenever im not with Gavin. I have classes on the weekends and all week I have about 4 hours of practice a day to do. I for sure feel more confident already and if I keep up I will be getting a good score for sure. Once I get my score I can have a more realistic idea of where i should apply.
And there isnt really much else going on in my life right now. I will however try to keep you up to date a bit more requently then in the past few months. It is just that I get annoyed and I know you do as well when all i do it bitch about Matture and how woe is me. So none of that from now on:)
I should at least make an attempt to sleep, it is now almost past 2 am. Nighty night.
So now comes the good news. I am currently dating someone that does not go by the name Matt, Mathew, Mathieu or any dirivitive of the name Matt. His name is Gavin. OOOO Gavin. Superrr Hot, South African (amazing accent), Greatest personality ever. I can't say enough good things about him. It has been three weeks of seeing each other every other day and I havn't found anything about him I do not like. My sister even said "He is the hottest guy you have ever dated, he could like pass as a hot guy out in a bar" I cracked up at this because i am imfamous for my "taste" in guys. But trust me, Gavin is a nerd at heart. So things are going well, he just left a bit ago. We went out to dinner with my mom, sister, and family friends and he passed with flying colors. Then we came home and watched Guliver's travels downstairs. But he was trying hard to get me not to focus on the movie. But we agreed to take things slow, since I don't want to fuck things up by moving too fast and then feeling like he doesnt stand up to Matture, simply because I am not comfotable with him.
We are having a good time and he is adorable beyond words. I just feel like it is doomed before it really even starts because I want to go to school in NY, and I dont know if he would want to move there...Not really even close to being at the stage to bring that up. But i can't help looking ahead.
As far as other things in my life are concerned, I am studying for the Lsat whenever im not with Gavin. I have classes on the weekends and all week I have about 4 hours of practice a day to do. I for sure feel more confident already and if I keep up I will be getting a good score for sure. Once I get my score I can have a more realistic idea of where i should apply.
And there isnt really much else going on in my life right now. I will however try to keep you up to date a bit more requently then in the past few months. It is just that I get annoyed and I know you do as well when all i do it bitch about Matture and how woe is me. So none of that from now on:)
I should at least make an attempt to sleep, it is now almost past 2 am. Nighty night.