My life is full of moments where I stop and say "Yes, that fits." It always leaves me with this sense of satisfaction that either the world around me is syncing up with what it actually is (my perception), or my grasp of reality as it is (independent of me) is spot on. I'm a big believer in the the world revolving around me, due to my belief that ( Read more... )

A calendar trivia question about Joaquin Phoenix got me to remembering one of my teenage loves... his big brother, River. It's interesting to read anecdotes that I knew when I was 16 - to see mention of the Seventeen Magazine environmental editorial he wrote and know exactly what it looked like - because a 14 year old me had it lovingly pinned to ( Read more... )

Today feels like it's never going to end. My head feels swollen inside, pressing against my skull and the backs of my eyes. I can't help but wonder if it's from the excess water that's been seeping out of my eyes all day. I've always known that everything hits at once. I've seen it all around me. You're cruising along, doing whatever seemingly ( Read more... )

I think children have some pretty ridiculous fears. You know the kind - monsters under the bed, boogeymen lurking in the closet, severed legs jumping out of toilets. Ok, so maybe you don't follow me on that last one, so let me explain ( Read more... )

NOTE: Aw, I got *told* about how some things should be kept private, and all I can say is - fuck people who can't look back on their past & be entertained by what brought them to where they are today. Anyone who knows me knows that nothing in my world is private. What's the fucking point?Once upon a time I was a 'tech' at a virtual reality place ( Read more... )

I loathe cemetaries, at least for anything other than cliche-artsy goth photos. The entire idea behind them, as I understand it, is that they are a place to not so much mourn your dead as to honor them in some form or other ( Read more... )

It's so interesting to me the way people put limits on things that they want to feel like they are in control of. This goes on so many levels - limits on what you can and cannot do, limits on who people can and cannot sleep with, etc ( Read more... )

I'm floating somewhere above myself today. All my motions seems predestined and fluid. Otherwise it's a day like any other day in a working class life. The rain falls lightly and beads on the hood of the black lacquered car I call mine even though a credit union holds the title. Voices sing softly from my computer speakers about the laziness of ( Read more... )

What's in store for us? At this point in our evolution it seems we are doomed - the next page of this choose your own adventure for humanity will surely say 'you have died ( Read more... )

Tonight found me sitting in the Kaiser waiting room for 8 hours. During which time I observed babies intelligently scurrying for the door, women freaking out and subjecting their male counterparts to ever higher levels of anxiety over their ailments, way too much boring television involving Britney Spears and matches made in hell, the way the color ( Read more... )