My weekend
Well as you know, I didn't go home. I'm now here until Sunday next week I think.
I some ways it's good to be here, in other ways I'm not so sure. Being here is kind of unreal. I've never seen that Granddad while I've been at uni, so I don't miss him. It's still very unreal to me because I'm here and not home. Plus I'm still doing normal things with people. On Friday I went into class. Yesterday I watched rugby with Chris, today I watched rugby with Chris and Sabrina. We got her totally hooked! She was sad there was only one match today.
I still haven't cried. I don't really want to cry on my own. I haven't wanted to cry in public places either and that just leaves at home with Sabrina and I haven't wanted to cry then either.
I have an assignment due on Friday. I still haven't started it. I didn't feel in the mood to do it before Granddad died and now I feel even less in the mood.
I haven't slept properly for a week for various reasons (pain, noisy malaysian flatmate on the phone at all hours, too many thoughts in my head etc). So I'm really tired, rather apathetic and a bit numb.
ETA:
I kinda want to watch a dvd. Last night I watched Shawshank Redemption. That's possibly one of the only films I have here that won't make me cry at any point. So I dunno what to do now.
I some ways it's good to be here, in other ways I'm not so sure. Being here is kind of unreal. I've never seen that Granddad while I've been at uni, so I don't miss him. It's still very unreal to me because I'm here and not home. Plus I'm still doing normal things with people. On Friday I went into class. Yesterday I watched rugby with Chris, today I watched rugby with Chris and Sabrina. We got her totally hooked! She was sad there was only one match today.
I still haven't cried. I don't really want to cry on my own. I haven't wanted to cry in public places either and that just leaves at home with Sabrina and I haven't wanted to cry then either.
I have an assignment due on Friday. I still haven't started it. I didn't feel in the mood to do it before Granddad died and now I feel even less in the mood.
I haven't slept properly for a week for various reasons (pain, noisy malaysian flatmate on the phone at all hours, too many thoughts in my head etc). So I'm really tired, rather apathetic and a bit numb.
ETA:
I kinda want to watch a dvd. Last night I watched Shawshank Redemption. That's possibly one of the only films I have here that won't make me cry at any point. So I dunno what to do now.