And That's Okay
Something has been growing inside me. It's been boiling. Every sweet day encountered fermented into something else. Every equal/opposite reaction has added into this. The key work has finished and I have snapped. I feel so angry and I feel so much hate for some things and some people. I wanted to snap the asshole's neck at Sears today. I wanted to drive my car into the piece of shit who wouldn't get out of my lane. I wanted to drive a screw driver through my leg right into the freshness of my wound. At one point I got so angry that I forgot I had it there. The pain completely disappeared. Everyone is getting organized into extremes. There will be no more middle. As I think about it now, that leaves two people that aren't in my direct family on my good side.
I'm gonna ask mom if I can stay in the Philippines for a month or two when we go. I remember her always telling me she'd ship me off over there when she'd get annoyed with me. To be honest I'm already so annoyed with myself I'll send my own body there in a box. Things have changed for me blah blah blah. I realize now how much I got fucked over by the one person I shouldn't have been fucked over by. I had the information on you. I knew what you did. I even called you out on it and you admitted them to me! Then you used it all on me. I am a fool.
P.S.
...and that's okay.
I'm gonna ask mom if I can stay in the Philippines for a month or two when we go. I remember her always telling me she'd ship me off over there when she'd get annoyed with me. To be honest I'm already so annoyed with myself I'll send my own body there in a box. Things have changed for me blah blah blah. I realize now how much I got fucked over by the one person I shouldn't have been fucked over by. I had the information on you. I knew what you did. I even called you out on it and you admitted them to me! Then you used it all on me. I am a fool.
P.S.
...and that's okay.