It is a bad idea to drink coffee late in the evening at work.

(also I'd like to mention that gumbo, the cutest cat in the world, is curled up tiny on my lap with his chin resting on my chest, looking at me and purring so loud you could probably hear him in the other room. Awww.)

I can't sleep, and I have to be at work at 8:00. I took a temazepam, but I'm still awake. Damn it. I did my dishes tonight, first time in over 2 months, I think. Maybe tomorrow evening I'll clean a little more. I need to find a better place for Mel's plants than my dresser.

Finney's starting to feel a little lonely. Anyone want to do something

The drugs without eating much for the last week has finally caught up with me. I threw up a bunch of stomach acid this morning, and laying down gives me the spins. Now I'm eating oatmeal and watching the zillionth movie of this weekend. Well, no, technically it's on pause because my mom im'd me. So did David - to tell me about some Greek god. Huh. ( Read more... )

Saw Lisa again. Instead of going the route or more sleep drugs, she prescribed Paxil, thinking that getting rid of the anxiety will get rid of the insomnia. So now it's a matter of trying to get my doctor to prescribe it I guess. Anyone take Paxil or know much about it?

I love, LOVE the Tragic Kingdom album. Love it. All of it.

I have read as far as I'm willing to, in the blank slate. Almost, almost made it to the end. I stopped after the gender chapter, because I'm pretty sure I can write a hell of a long response just on that. Unfortunately, I have to do four responses, and they can't all be on the gender chapter. Mostly the only reason I was like "what?!" is because ( Read more... )

I am frustrated with drug companies, and my health insurance. Lunesta is $3 a pill, and my insurance won't cover anything that doesn't have a generic version. I highly doubt I'll be able to convince my parents to pay $90 a month. Growl.

Today has been a running around doing random shit kind of day. I had workstudy at 9:00 this morning for 2 1/2 hours, and afterwards I helped Kim with a craft project (the girl didn't understand how to use Mod Podge). Then I had an appointment with Lisa Lawrence about the insomnia (psychiatric nurse), which was awesome, she's a freaking cool lady. ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. I am more wide awake than I have been in...I don't know ( Read more... )

I'm actually going to class. Amazing. I had a bad attack of the "couldn't sleeps" last night. Next week I'm going to go back to going to sleep at 11:00. I'll take more pills I guess, since 3 don't work anymore. But last night, oh, last night was hell. Couldn't find my journal (which I now see, in the light), my fridge was making scary noises, I ( Read more... )

Last night I didn't fall asleep until around 4:00. I woke up countless times with dreams, both good and scary, but mostly scary. I don't remember what the one that really scared me was about. I hate dreaming. I miss the days where I never ever remembered my dreams. It was so much easier.