Only my Perspective on things!!! i speak for me only ok...

[penguin4life07]

Weird... When me and leslie were together we changed each other from what we actually wanted somehow, with out realizing it. Now that we are apart it seems to bring her back to god which is something i admire, and me back to being honest and kind instead of sly and deceptive. I dont really know what happened, when or how but it did and we became the two people that drove each other mad. I believe that everything happens for a reason. If it is gods will that we are apart then it is for a reason. A reason in which i truely belive is finding ourselves and him. And if we do get back together or stay apart forever it is not in our hands to decide. We become who we are and who we need to be and the if we try again then it will be the ultimate last because we would be the real us. And if that doesnt work then it would never work. We both see the true other deep down but have never seen it on the surface save for one or two rare occasions maybe but never at the same moment. I went to church again this morning as i did last and i realized that i really enjoy it. It makes me think about a whole new spectrum of thought not even dealing with myself. I realized that i had become extremely selfish and always thinking about the benefit of myself. Instead of doing what i have always felt which is if everyone else is happy i am happy. That is also bad in ways so i blended that with a little bit of care for myself and wahhlaah a better person i am.

Im starting many new things tommorow that i think im going to like...
-Min of 2 good deeds per day for someone other than yourself!!!
-DIET ewewewewww yeah hate the word but face it im fat and i gotta shed some weight!!!
-Exercise- Gym for 45-60 mins and run for 45 mins prob in the mornings depends on my sched.
-And lastly is Relaxation and focus... when im stressed i fail everything, if i relax i ace it everytime... If i focus i learn and enjoy learning!!!

Love truely,

P-Diddy