Lots of Thoughts...
I've been feeling kind of blah lately. I've been feeling that way lately, and yeah, I guess that's a recurrent theme.
I found 'The Happiness Project' at Book Off, and I've wanted to read it for a while, actually and just kind of forgot about it, so I bought it. It's really interesting. The woman sure reads a lot of books. I feel like every page has some kind of quote from someone. I guess that's why she's a writer.
But, yeah, it's interesting how she's trying to make her life happier. When I read it, it seems more like a personal betterment project instead of a happiness one. It's in the vein of Benjamin Franklin...whom I lovingly refer to as Benny Frank. Like we're pals or something, haha. Pals. Gumshoe. Awww. <3
Yes, sidetracked, but it's got me thinking about what I need/desire in my life. Lately I've been feeling very unfulfilled in my job, but the book brought out the point that we're happiest while challenged/learning something. It makes sense. I feel happiest when I'm so busy that I barely sleep. The reason that the sadness has been kept at bay lately is probably due to my Japanese classes. I've been thinking lately that I want to add another class or activity to my week so that I have something else to look forward to. In school I was the overachiever, a million clubs and part time jobs. Now that I'm working full time and not doing anything that I really like besides studying Japanese, it makes sense that I'm kind of down about that. I honestly thought that while I don't necessarily like moving around all the time, that I'm probably happiest while moving. Of course, the book is talking about the fallacy of thinking that we'll arrive at happiness once we reach a certain goal, and that's not true. It's usually the fact that we're experiencing most of the happiness that we'll have due to the journey, the way we get there. Hm.
So while it makes me wonder, still, I'm unsettled. I know I'm young, I have this kind of, 'if I don't do it now, I'll never do it!!! :(' mentality that I really need to learn how to tackle. It's okay to let some things take time. Like grad school. I know I want to go back, but I'm not ready. I'll know when I'm ready, and it's not something that I'll have to rush, I know that much. But still, I feel like I'm wasting away while I'm waiting. I'm not enjoying the journey, I'm not taking time to enjoy the moment, and that causes a lot of unhappiness. Especially since I won't magically transform into happiness when I reach that specific destination. Most of the happiness comes in the planning and dreaming phase. So I'll have to remember that.
I also think that I might have just figured out the job that I ACTUALLY want to do. Study Abroad Coordinator. It's something that I'm interested, and something that, from my searches, appears that I'm actually qualified for. We'll have to see how that goes, now that I have that idea cooking around in my head. Not sure if anything will come of it, especially with the questionable state of my current job and the fact that I'm already in Japan...but, yeah.
I found 'The Happiness Project' at Book Off, and I've wanted to read it for a while, actually and just kind of forgot about it, so I bought it. It's really interesting. The woman sure reads a lot of books. I feel like every page has some kind of quote from someone. I guess that's why she's a writer.
But, yeah, it's interesting how she's trying to make her life happier. When I read it, it seems more like a personal betterment project instead of a happiness one. It's in the vein of Benjamin Franklin...whom I lovingly refer to as Benny Frank. Like we're pals or something, haha. Pals. Gumshoe. Awww. <3
Yes, sidetracked, but it's got me thinking about what I need/desire in my life. Lately I've been feeling very unfulfilled in my job, but the book brought out the point that we're happiest while challenged/learning something. It makes sense. I feel happiest when I'm so busy that I barely sleep. The reason that the sadness has been kept at bay lately is probably due to my Japanese classes. I've been thinking lately that I want to add another class or activity to my week so that I have something else to look forward to. In school I was the overachiever, a million clubs and part time jobs. Now that I'm working full time and not doing anything that I really like besides studying Japanese, it makes sense that I'm kind of down about that. I honestly thought that while I don't necessarily like moving around all the time, that I'm probably happiest while moving. Of course, the book is talking about the fallacy of thinking that we'll arrive at happiness once we reach a certain goal, and that's not true. It's usually the fact that we're experiencing most of the happiness that we'll have due to the journey, the way we get there. Hm.
So while it makes me wonder, still, I'm unsettled. I know I'm young, I have this kind of, 'if I don't do it now, I'll never do it!!! :(' mentality that I really need to learn how to tackle. It's okay to let some things take time. Like grad school. I know I want to go back, but I'm not ready. I'll know when I'm ready, and it's not something that I'll have to rush, I know that much. But still, I feel like I'm wasting away while I'm waiting. I'm not enjoying the journey, I'm not taking time to enjoy the moment, and that causes a lot of unhappiness. Especially since I won't magically transform into happiness when I reach that specific destination. Most of the happiness comes in the planning and dreaming phase. So I'll have to remember that.
I also think that I might have just figured out the job that I ACTUALLY want to do. Study Abroad Coordinator. It's something that I'm interested, and something that, from my searches, appears that I'm actually qualified for. We'll have to see how that goes, now that I have that idea cooking around in my head. Not sure if anything will come of it, especially with the questionable state of my current job and the fact that I'm already in Japan...but, yeah.