Nov 05, 2007 22:46
I never learn from my mistakes. Ever.
I'm an idiot when it comes to relationships. And friendships. And keeping promises. And math. And not being lazy.
I want a complete 100% pushover. I want to be able to break promises...but I want it to be ok. I want to be able to flip a shit for no reason other than I can...and it will be ok. I want to be able to forget something really, really important (but when he forgets something important about me I can be angry)...but it will be ok.
This complete 100% pushover should be incredibly smart. He should have a good job and he should financially support me because I don't want to. Oh, and we get to have sex whenever I see fit. He will never be hurt by my cold shoulder or my cold words. And he will love me like crazy because he will be completely whipped.
If I had that...things would be so much easier. If I had that I wouldn't have to sacrifice all of the things about me I don't want to let go of. I like being stubborn. I like being in control. I like getting things I don't deserve. I like being mean for no reason if it doesn't come back to bite me in the ass.
Please, don't take this post as completely serious.