Oct 17, 2007 23:41
I would love to do nothing for the rest of my life.
I want to straight up win a ton of money and just sit on my ass all day.
I'm so sick of going to school. I'm sick of my bullshit philosophy class. I'm sick of trying to find a good job, I'm sick of Mike and I being so tired and stressed out, I'm sick of eating shitty food because I can't afford anything else that would be convenient, I'm sick of feeling pressured to move out, I'm sick of fucking up in all of my classes, I'm sick of people asking me how long it will be until I finish school.
Basically, I'm sick. I've been so out of it since last semester that seeing me with makeup on is rare now. RARE. Do you have any idea who I am?
I want to teach sociology so bad. It's the only subject I can just wrap my fingers around and enjoy. I love going to class. I love it so much that when my professor gets into a discussion I just want to tackle him and...just kiss him. He's not even that great looking. Point is, I like it a lot.
But I can't get motivated. No matter how hard I try I feel like I never will be motivated enough to want this.
Everything is just so hard.