Sep 22, 2007 03:25
I'm that kind of person who picks at wounds (physically AND emotionally) until, you know, they get all red and itchy and irritating.
Such as my boyfriend's best friend telling me he loves me. My boyfriend's best friend's girlfriend breaking up with him. My boyfriend's best friend telling me (after we've been close friends ourselves for quite some time) that he never wants to see or talk to me again because he's "afraid he would initiate something". My boyfriend's best friend not talking to me anymore. Me picking at him. Calling him a bunch of times. Texting, messaging, and IMing because I don't fucking understand why he should have to shut me out.
I can't sleep. I hate being ignored. Mostly, though, I hate not understanding something when I really, really want to understand. I could just cry.