kamenashi Hayato, My son... My lover...
Sometimes… he forgets.
If this is Haya or Jin.
He sees Jin most of the time.
And that’ll put a smile on his face.
The smile won’t last long.
Part of him would slap him to reality and make him realize.
The one that’s holding him.
The lips that kiss.
The scent he smells…
Aren’t Jin’s but Haya’s.
Kame wonders sometimes…
If Jin was alive, would he be able to tell the difference between them?
Will he develop the same feelings towards the younger just because he looks like him?
Will Haya understand if he knows everything?
He wonders how life would be like if Jin’s alive.
Will they still be idols after Haya’s birth?
Or will they resign, and live a peaceful life away from the lights and fame.
And then… he wonders if Haya will come to understand this twisted relationships he and his father have.
Kame closed his eyes and let his tears fall and disappear in to the pillow.
“Kazu…”
The smaller and younger one looked up at him and smiled.
“If… one of us has to go first.”
“Will you… ummm….”
“Will you wait for me?”
“Baka.”
The younger one frowned.
“You arranged all these romantic stuffs for us, and say those depressing things?!”
“Hahaha…”
The older one faked a chuckle.
“Sou… nee…”
“Gomen ne, Kazu-chan, seems like my baka side will still be here no matter how old I’d get.”
He picked up a cookie, took a bite from it, and offered it to the younger one.
“Hai! These are so good, Kazu… they’re from the shot you love so much in Shibu-“
“I will.”
The younger one cut him off.
“Hn?”
His hand froze in mid air.
“Because I want to be with Jin so much.”
He smiled at him and looked up the starry night.
“Because I want to be wherever Jin is…”
“Here or there…”
Kazuya inhaled deeply.
“Because I love Jin.”
He looked back to his lover that has been silent for a while.
“I love you.”
He inched to him closer, and took the cookie away to put it back on the plate.
“Ore wa… anata wo, hontou ni… aishiteru yo.”
I love you so much.
“I told you, right?”
He brought his left pinky up, and held it to the sky, as if showing to the stars above.
“Ano toki no basho… kienai kono kizuna.”
“Because I will always follow Jin… to be like Jin… and to be with Jin.”
“And hope to be with Jin, in this life time, or the next.”
“If… that’s okay with you-“
He found his lover’s lips on his, cutting off whatever he has to say next.
“I love you too.”
Jin said between pecks of small kisses.”
“Kazuya… I love you so much.”
He brought the younger in his arms and whispered the words over and over.
“But you know something, love…?”
Jin pulled him away to look him in the eyes.
“I want you to be happy.”
“Even the happiest.”
“Be happy, love.”
“…Because knowing you’re happy, it’s like an accomplishment for me.”
“Knowing my Kazu is smiling, I’ll be smiling too.”
Kazuya had some tears in his eyes.
He refused to cry like some girl, so he looked away and blinked back the water.
“What if it’s Ryo-chan?”
He said, taunting his lover.
“Eh?”
Jin blinked.
“Ryo….-chan…?”
“Yes.”
He turned around, arms on his chest.
“The one that will make me happy.”
“Or Pi… or Koki…”
“Will you be okay with that?!”
“EHHHHH?????!!!!”
Jin shrieked.
“YOU LOVE RYO-CHAN???!!!!”
“EHHH!!!!”
“KAZUUU!!!”
“EHHH!!! WHY WHY WHY??!!!”
His eyes widened, and his whiny mode switched on.
“He’s short, and mean, and and and… oh, I bet you in a fight, he’d probably lose because his opponents are taller than him, and you’d-“
“That’s why don’t leave me.”
He covered his lover’s lips with his hand.
“Jin can’t leave Kazu.”
“Because I might just run off with Ryo is you do.”
He pouted.
“Hn…”
Jin nods, smiling his childish smile at him.
“I won’t.”
Jin pulled his Kazu in his embrace, and they lay down on the blanket to continue gazing at the stars.
Kame sighed softly, forcing himself to not think about whatever his lover just asked minutes ago.
Because honestly speaking, it scared him so much, and just thinking about it upsets him.
Being childish is the only thing he can think of for taking that off his mind.
And Jin’s.
“What if we're both girls in our next life?”
He gasped, and immediately sat up.
“Jin… really, you’re such a mood killer!!!”
Kame closed his eyes, sighing tiredly as he massage his temples.
He thought he’d have some peace and lovey dovey time with his lover.
As cheesy as that sounds, it’s better than his lover being… a baka, or a mood killer.
“…”
The older one gave him a blank… skeptical look.
“UGH!”
He grunted.
“Okay… first of all…”
“We’re both men…”
“Now…”
He pointed to himself and Jin few times back and forth.
“It doesn’t stop us now, right?”
He said slowly.
“AH!!! That’s right!!!”
Jin clasped his hands together, as if he just discovered it all right there.
“Hey! Just because I’m your uke, doesn’t mean I’m a girl, idiot boyfriend of mine!!”
He thwacked Jin’s head none too gently.
“Kazu…”
He whined.
“And I topped you here and there, Jin.”
He gave the other’s chest a poke.
“And lemme tell ya, you LOVED it!”
“And I can say you’re more suitable as an uke, than a seme, you-“
“I know…”
The older one smiled.
“And… I don’t see you as a girl, Kazu.”
Kame raised his brow at him.
“Okay, fine… but it’s because you’re breathtakingly beautiful, Kazuya.”
“And… it should be a crime for a man to be this beautiful.”
“But I am so lucky, and I thank lady luck for you to have chosen a guy like me.”
“I mean, if you want to go homosexual, you could’ve chosen someone far better than me like-“
“Jin…”
Kame rolled his eyes.
“AH! Kimura Takuya.”
Jin pointed.
“Or or or… someone like… Robbert Patison.”
Kame sighed.
Things get off topic sometimes with his boyfriend.
Jin’s bakaness can be so annoying sometimes.
“But, love…”
“No matter weird kinks I have you do, dressing in girls kimonos, or girls school uniforms…”
“I still see and respect you as a man.”
He cupped the younger’s cheek, and placed a peck on those pouty lips he loves so much lovingly.
Kame’s frown turned upside down.
“Mister… what am I going to do with you?”
He sighed dreamily.
“Well, I tell you what…”
Jin grinned.
“You are going to kiss me, and love me so much, and… spread those beautiful assets I love so much and let me have your way with you?”
“Baka.”
Kame laughed and settled himself on his laps.
“Jinjin, you’re such a baka…”
Jin laughed, wrapping his arms around his waist, and placed his chin on his shoulder.
“Under these stars as our witnesses, I promise you, my love.”
He whispered.
“You’re such a sap, Akanishi Jin.”
“Don’t tell me those are part of your next solos.”
“Last time we were in Okinawa, you recited a line out of CARE.”
Kame chuckled.
“Hey!!!”
Jin pouts.
“But you gotta admit, baby, they’re all turned out to be great, no?”
“This sappy Jin made CARE a big hit.”
Jin beamed.
“Inspired by KIZUNA.”
Kame turned around on his laps, and poked his cheek.
“No…”
Jin said softly.
Kame frowned.
Jin gave his lips a peck before continuing.
“It was not Kizuna, you know.”
“It was KAZUYA.”
“It was, and will always be, KAZUYA.”
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The cheerleaders wave their poms poms in the air, they’re already in high spirits for the game that’s only half an hour away.
Some of the crowds gathered in the stadium, finding good seats, and chat with some of the players that are either friends, boyfriends, or family members.
And some, would flirt with the cheerleaders.
Hayato sighed as he watch his team mate, Henry, jogged towards the seats, and greeted his love with a kiss.
No, it’s not like he’s secretly in love with his girl, Lisa, even though she’s hot, but NO.
He just wishes he can do the same.
He wants to be able to kiss his Kazuya like that.
Out in the open, when people are around.
Making a statement to those out there that desire him or Kazuya, that they are both taken.
He wants that.
Kissing Kazuya openly, hugging him randomly as they stroll down the street.
And maybe make him squeal as he grabs his-
The captain shook his head and dribbled away.
Not good if he thinks the necessaries before the game.
He’s the captain, everyone expect him to bring them to victory.
“Yo!!!”
The co-captain jogged his way towards him.
He dribbled the ball, and passed it to Jay.
“You look bothered.”
“Dude, don’t tell me you’re nervous now.”
“Jay, I brought the team to victories ever since freshmen year.”
He said cockily.
“I did it then, I’ll do it now.”
“That’s what I’m talking about!!!”
He nodded and the two kept on passing the ball back and forth.
Still… his mind is still lingering on his boyfriend.
The said man couldn’t make it to his game today.
The first time in years that he’d be missing it.
And it’s the play off’s final, the most important of all games in the season.
But, what can he do?
He can’t help but think about what the man said after he confessed to him about “Kazumi”.
That he told his three best friends that he is dating an older chik.
And that so-called-person, is Kazumi.
Which is really him in reality, just subtract the YA and add MI in KAZU.
The older man didn’t say anything.
He chuckled, and the subject was dropped.
And when he told the man about the game, he said he couldn’t make it.
“Hold up.”
Jay tossed the ball to the basket, successfully made it in, and jogged off to the side of the court.
Hayato rolled his eyes.
Of course, his best friend is greeting his catch of the day.
Better yet, sucking her what’s her name’s face off as a greeting.
“HELLO CAPTAIN!!!”
Two girls called out for his attention.
He looked up, give the two his smile, and wave.
Usually, he won’t bother look, or will throw them his emotionless stare.
But those two are exceptions for they are his best friends’ girl friends.
“Dude, kick ass!”
Nick clenched his fists up in the air.
“Or we’ll kick yours if you don’t!”
Riley grinned.
Hayato licked his lips, a habit of his to show others his confidence and arrogance.
But in other girls opinion, it is just a gesture they all wish to taste.
He shook his head as he saw Jay on the corner.
Like he predicted, his best friend is sucking what’s her name’s face off.
He never bothered on knowing or remembering the names of Jay’s girls.
None of them did, because it’s such a waste of time.
If they bother to remember the girl’s name is Cindy, in a few days, it will be Sophia, Angel, or Mari.
Even when Riley told him that the girl he’s French kissing is crushing on Hayato, he won’t care.
Besides, Hayato already has someone.
His playboy best friend just shrugs, he could care less, as long as he can have his fun.
It’s not like he wants a serious relationships with those girls.
A serious good fuck, yeah, but relationship?
Hayato scoffed, and moved to the middle of the court.
His mind wondered back to Kazuya as he make shots after shots in the basket.
And occasionally he’d look to the entrance to the court, to see if his love was just joking and he’d make it just in time for the game like he did last year.
He sighed as he kept seeing strangers going in.
“CAPTAIN!!!”
“LOOK OUT!!!!!”
His team mates yelled, but poor Haya, too busy in his own thoughts he didn’t dodge the ball quick enough.
Thus, resulting on one of them landing hardly on his head.
“HAYATO!!!!!!!!!”
The next thing he knew, was that, the court is a bit quiter, and he saw all his team mates circling him.
And… he wasn’t exactly lying down on the dirty floor, but an arm wrapped itself around his shoulder.
He looked up and frowned.
A lady.
Very pretty, and he was so mesmerized.
And instantly, he forgot where he was, and all he see is just-
“AHHH!!!!!”
He pulled himself up to a sitting position.
“Y-You… KAZU-“
The lady immediately hugged him, and she sighed.
“Oh… I am so glad you are okay, baby…”
“HAH?!”
Was all he could say.
“The moment I came in, I saw you got hit with the ball…”
She said dramatically.
“It scared the heck out of me.”
He pulled himself away and frown at the lady.
“Kazu-“
“Haya…”
She gritted her teeth.
“Wait…”
Jay crouched down.
“Kazu…”
“Kazu…”
He tapped his chin, looking back and forth between his best friend and the lady.
“HOLY SHIT!”
Jay stood up.
“NICK! RILEY~ it’s KAZUMI!!!”
“HAYATO’S CHICK!!!”
Right that moment, the poms poms the cheerleaders were holding, dropped to the floor.
Most girls stare blankly at the court.
And the basket ball players around sighed in relieved their captain is okay.
“Ah… so you’re Hayato’s girl!!!”
Nick grinned.
“Very nice to meet you!”
Riley smiled.
“I’m-“
“Riley and Nick, and you’re Jay.”
The lady gave him a knowing smile.
The boys looked at each other, and back to the girl.
“Ah, Haya… told me a lot about you guys.”
She laughed nervously.
“I’m Kazumi.”
“Very nice to meet you guys in person.”
“Wait, wait…”
Jay flailed his arms.
“YOU call him HAYA?!”
“Wow… he is serious about you.”
The co-captain snickered.
“Last I called him that, in 4th grade, and yerr boy gave me a wedgie!”
“I’m not you, gigolo.”
Hayato murmured.
He looked at the lady, and quickly stood up, bringing her along.
“Come on.”
“DUDE!!! It’s not the time for hanky panky right now!!!”
Jay hollered.
Hayato gave him the finger, and dashed towards the locker room with the lady in tow.
“DAAAAAMMMMNNNN!!!”
One of the guys cheered.
“I’d tap that!!!”
Jay nodded.
“She’s Hayato’s girl!”
Nick shook his head.
“Okay, she’s not that hot! She has small tits!!!”
The captain of the cheerleaders screamed.
“Pfft, yeah, but her ass is fine!”
Riley wiped an imaginary drool off his chin.
“And those slim curves… DAYUMMMNNN!!!!”
Jay described the lady’s curve on air, while the guys kept on howling like a hungry wolf.
“Haya…?”
The teen closed his eyes, and took a deep breath.
“Can you please… explain to me…”
He said slowly.
“Explain you… dressed as a… girl, Kazuya-san?”
Kame chuckled.
“Well, Kazuya can’t make it, so KazuMI’s here!!!”
He said merrily.
Hayato gave him a blank look.
“Okay…”
Kame sighed.
“I know, you said you want to go out in the open and all.”
“But, Haya…”
“You know our situations.”
“I’m supposed to be your tou-chan, and you’re my son.”
“So it isn’t going to work.”
Kame shrugged.
“Kazuya-san…”
The teen sighed.
“It’s the new era, people won’t care if we’re both-“
“Yes, they do, Haya.”
He walked up to the teen and cupped both his cheeks.
“Listen, baby…”
“I know… you’re envious of your team mates.”
“You want to show me around, and do what Henry, John, Kevin does to their lovers.”
“But Haya, you can’t do that.”
“It’s just never going to happen, baby.”
“In society’s eyes, I’m your tou-chan.”
“They can take you away from me.”
The teen pulled him into his embrace and leaned on the wall.
“I know…”
He said softly.
“But… what I meant by being open, is… us going to a place where others don’t know us at all.”
“Some place where we’re just… a complete stranger to them.”
“Where in their eyes, they see two people.”
“In love…”
“Like… we can go to Staten Island, or New Jersey.”
He pointed.
“No one knows you’re supposed to be my tou-chan.”
“People would just look at us, like… normal gay couple.”
“And… you don’t have to be in… drag.”
“I like you as you…”
Kame frowned.
“Ah… you don’t like it?”
He twirled around, and flip his wig.
“You’re beautiful.”
The teen leaned in and kissed the older man’s lips softly.
“But I still prefer the original Kazuya-san.”
“In men’s clothes.”
Kame laughed and pinched the teen’s cheek tenderly.
“You have way with words, you know that!”
“Just like-“
The teen smiled, and raised his brow.
“Like…?”
“Your uncle Koki.”
Kame shook his head.
“You and that usually baldy uncle of yours are the same.”
The teen laughed.
“Hey… you look familiar.”
The teen put his hands on the other’s shoulders.
“Are you being funny, or your Japanese is messy again?”
Kame frowned.
“No, no.”
He shook his head.
“What I meant was… your hair…”
“Long… and brown…”
He pointed.
“Well, the wig, actually, but…”
“I saw a picture of you with this kind of hair.”
“AH! I think it was in uncle Tatsuya’s house!”
“Yeah! There was you and him… with long hair…”
“Uncle Tatsuya and you were wearing a kimono.”
The teen nodded.
“And… I thought to myself… wow, you look so beautiful.”
“Uncle Tatsuya too, but… wow, I can’t take my eyes off you.”
Kame chuckled.
“Well, thank you.”
Kame grinned.
“That was in 2006, you weren’t even born yet.”
“And for your info, it was NOT a kimono.”
Kame points his index finger to the teen’s chest.
“It was a men’s yukata.”
“Hmm…”
The teen nodded.
“I don’t care…”
“I guess I am lucky to have you.”
The teen chuckled.
Kame hugged the teen and the smile on his face faltered.
“Kazuya-san…”
“Hn…?”
“Thank you for coming.”
“I’m really happy, that you came.”
“And… it means a lot to me that you are willing to do this for me.”
Kame pulled away, and gave the teen a kiss.
“You’re welcome.”
“You go kick butt out there, okay?”
“Or else, I won’t feed you.”
“EHH!!!”
The teen gaped.
“Joking.”
Kame inched his face closer to the teen’s.
“I’ll make something special for you…”
part II: peace-l0v3.livejournal.com/15562.html