chappie 10
"Haya..."
The boy grinned as he dropped his stuffed penguin and walked towards the person who waved at him.
"Here, Hayato..."
Ueda waved his milk bottle.
"Do you want this?"
"No, here, uncle Koki has a cool robot toy."
The "baldy" grinned.
"Haya-chan, want to play with my gameboys?"
Junno knleed down, stretching his hand to the little tot.
"You guys are confusing the poor kid."
Maru shook his head.
The adults are bribing the kid with whatever they have at hand.
From toys, food, even cell phones.
The kid giggled and shook his head.
His eyes focus on one person, and one person alone.
Unlike his three uncles who have something on their hand, that person doesn't have anything.
He just have his arms wide open, and a loving smile on his lips.
So, with small, shaky steps, the almost 1 year old boy walked to him.
"Oof!"
Kame immediately wrapped his arms around the baby, and picked him up.
"Got you, baby..."
He clapped his little hands and rest his head on the man's shoulder.
"Ah... no fair!!!"
Koki pouts.
"Haya-kun, why???"
Maru chuckled, poking at the baby's cheek softly, playing peek-a-boo with him.
"Cuz he knows who loves him."
"EH!!! But we love Haya-chan!!!"
Junno shrieked.
"Yeah, but... Kame will always love him more."
Maru smiled.
"Ne, Haya?"
"ununununununun"
The baby smiled wider, and nodding his head, and shaking his head, playing with Maru.
"You're so cute."
Kame lifts him up high.
"Haya..."
"aa~"
The baby giggled.
"uu~"
"Say, tou-chan..."
Kame locks the baby in his arms, and swings himself around.
"Tou-chan..."
"...uu..."
"No, baby, tou-chan..."
He plants a kiss on the baby's head.
The baby giggled, amused for some unknown reason.
Junno laughed as well, poking the baby's cheek.
Hayato caught the finger, and make faces with Junno.
Maru did some beat boxing, making the baby laugh.
Admist the laughter all around, the baby pats the person who's holding him.
"Yes, baby?"
Kame looks down at him with smile full of love and affection.
His four uncles stopped laughing, and focus all their attention to the baby.
"azu..."
"Eh?"
Kame blinked.
"a... zu..."
The baby pats his chest with his little hand, grinning.
"azu."
"EHH!!!"
The outher four gasped.
"Haya-chan just said..."
Junno gaped.
"Yeah... he did..."
Ueda nodded.
"No, baby, it's tou-chan..."
Kame chuckled.
"Not azu... but tou-chan, sweety."
The baby frowned, and kept on patting him.
"azu..."
He pouts.
"a...u..."
"Wahh!!! Kawaiii!!!"
T-TN exclaimed.
Kame plopped down on the couch with the baby still in his arms.
Hayato bounced slightly, giggling and clapped his hands.
"zu..."
He grinned.
"azu!!!"
"Yeah?"
Kame helped him stand on his laps, and caught his hands.
"Can we count that as your first word?"
The baby laughed and nodded.
Kame tilts his head back, and laughed at Hayato's expression as if he understands what he said.
"Okay, then."
Kame grinned.
"Baby, you're so cute."
He giggled while patting Kame's soft slightly chubby cheeks.
"As expected of our nephew ne..."
Koki plopped down next to the younger one.
"He's so smart..."
"Like father, like son, huh."
Ueda smiled softly.
And the four knew what their former leader meant by that.
"Yeah..."
Kame caught one of the hand, and kissed it.
"Just like your father..."
Kame turned around when he heard something heavy being dropped.
He saw his son-boyfriend just behind the couch, staring at the tv blankly.
"Haya... okaeri."
Kame stood up, and approached the teen.
"Shall we sing a song?"
Koki appeared again on the screen, bringing out a guitar, and gave it to Ueda.
Maru clenched his hand to his lips, and started making some noises, making baby Haya laughed.
"Haya..."
Kame frowned, the teen kept on staring at the screen.
He glanced at Kame, who gave him a sad, weak smile at him.
"You must be hungry, right?"
Kame turned around to reach the remote to turn the tv off.
"I marinated some chicken, give some time to-"
The teen grabbed his arm, and pulled the older man to his chest.
His hold tightened immediately, and he buried his nose in the crook of the older's neck.
"You're still...."
He breathes out.
"You're still holding on to that, aren't you."
Kame wraps his arms around the teen, and closed his eyes.
"Haya..."
"Kazuya-san..."
He pulled away, and look him straight in the eyes.
"I can tell that... that this kind of change doesn't make you happy."
"And... I'd rather..."
The teen gulped.
"I'd rather not do this, if it means that I can see you being genuinely happy."
"I love you..."
"You know I love you so much, Kazuya-san, but-"
"but if this is how it's going to be, I'll back off, as long as you're okay, and happy."
"You cringe when I touch you, and..."
"I can tell you like it better being my parent than my boyfriend."
"So... I'll- I'll try my best to be a man and be strong, and I'll try to let you-"
Kame tip toed to reach the younger's lips, and immediately shut him up.
This time, the teen cringed, and backed away.
Surprised, that this time, the older one initiated the action.
"K-Kazuya...-san?"
Kame closed his eyes, and touched the younger's lips.
"Haya..."
The teen kissed the hand on his lips.
"It takes some time, Haya..."
Kame said softly.
"I mean..."
"I raised you, sweet heart."
"I can't just... I can't just forget that, and pretend none of those happened."
"It's not like I'm dating just some younger guy..."
"You're- you were my son."
He cupped the teen's cheeks.
"And... we can't erase that fact, baby."
"You know I love you, Haya."
He smiled.
"I love you so much."
"Yeah, but..."
He gently remove the older's hands on his cheeks.
"The question is, how... or what."
"How do you love me, Kazuya-san?"
"Do you love me as a man... or... as your son."
"What kind of love is it, Kazuya-san?"
It's two different things..."
"Don't mix it up."
The teen turned around, and walked to his room.
But before he could reach the knob, a pair of arms wraps themselves around his waist.
"Ha... Haya..."
The older man stuttered.
"Is it... is it wrong, if it's... both?"
"Is it... selfish of me... to love you in both ways?"
He cried.
"You were my son, and... now my boyfriend..."
"I-it will take me some time, Haya."
"Can you... can you accept that, sweet heart?"
Hayato wraps his arms around the other's, and slightly leans back.
"Okay."
He sighed.
"I guess... we have to take it a step at a time, right?"
Kame rest his forehead on the boy's muscular back, and nods.
Slowly, the teen turned around, and have the older one rest his head on his chest.
"My angel, you are angel...
su na o nako kokoro wo
tsunai da koe ga, hikari ni kawaatta
kibou...
oooh... tara daratta ta oh oh..."
"Hn..."
The teen looked at the tv screen, eyes glinting.
"Ne..."
"Hm?"
Kame looked up.
"How come you stopped singing?"
The teen smiled.
"I wondered where that song was from..."
Kame froze.
"I loved that song. I remember you used to sing that to me before bed time when I was a toddler."
He smiled.
"It's a great lullaby... and unlike others... that song is full of love..."
"And your voice..."
The teen pulled the man away and smiled at him.
"Everytime you sang to me..."
"It puts me at ease."
He lazily draws circles on the older's back.
"I always know that you love me... and that I knew... you won't ever leave me."
Kame forced a smile.
"But then... some of those memories always somewhat ruined, because Yuichi ji-chan and uncle Koki started beat boxing and rapping."
The teen grinned.
"But of course, they ruined it in a good way."
He smiled at the sight of himself as a baby, laughing at the noise his uncle is making.
"Can you... sing to me again... sometimes?"
He rest his chin on the older's right shoulder, still looking at the older man on tv, singing to him, while his uncles just sat around, and listened to that wonderful voice.
"Yeah."
He cupped the teen's cheeks.
"I will."
"Now, you clean up."
Kame pats his shoulders.
"You smell like locker room."
Hayato laughed.
"Okay."
He nodded.
"I'll be back."
"And dinner will be ready when you're done, sweety."
Hayato smiled and reluctantly let go of the older man's waist.
Kame's smile soon faded as soon as the teen's away.
He slumped down, and muffled his cries.
Kame looked at the tv, as he and T-TUN laugh at the baby.
"I'm sorry, Jin..."
If Hayato would just look closely at the background where Kame and his uncles were seated on that couch...
Behind their heads, there are frames placed on the table.
Framed pictures of him and his father.
Of his boyfriend... and his father.
They finally have their date, after five weeks of being together.
Well... sort of...
Their real "first" date wasn't a date when they just watched movies together.
Now, they're happily walking around in the Central Park.
Even though there were snow on the grounds, it just made everything so beautiful around them.
"Haya, watch-"
"OOMPH!"
The teen slipped and fell on his butt.
"-out?"
Kame cringed, but laughed as soon as he saw the younger's expression.
"Don't laugh!"
He pouts.
"Kazuya-san... that's not funny!"
Kame bent down, holding on his stomach, and is trying his best to stop giggling.
"You... hahahah... that was..."
He hits his knees, and stomps his feet.
"And then... hahaha... you-woa!!!"
The next thing he knew, the younger one's face was close to his own.
He felt a little stinging pain on his knees.
"Ha! Look who fell now."
The teen stuck his tongue out and laughed while he points at the other.
"You're so mean."
Kame pouts.
"I'm old, you know."
"I could get heart attack."
Hayato stopped laughing, and his face turned serious.
The teen propped himself up with his elbow, and leaned in to the older one.
Kame slightly moved back, suddenly feeling tight and stuffy in the chest area.
He closed his eyes when their lips met.
He felt the other smile, and he made the first move to move his lips to deepened their kiss.
There were no tongues involved.
It was just an innocent kiss, as if they're trying to get to know each other.
When Kame pulled away, he didn't dare look the other in the eye.
"Are you okay, Haya?"
"I'm right here, Kazuya-san."
The teen sat up, and cups the man's cheeks with his hands.
"Not over there."
They chuckled at each other because they realized that they're both blushing.
And they knew that it wasn't the cold that caused their cheeks to turn pink like that.
"Oh."
Hayato looked up.
"It's snowing."
"Ah~ it is."
Kame smiled.
"We have lots of snow this year, I guess, huh?"
"Yeah..."
The teen plopped himself down on the snowy ground, and stretched his arms over his head.
"It's so peaceful here."
"I only go here during the winter, no one bothers this place."
He looked at the older man.
"In the summer however, there are lots of them crowding here after their jogs or just watching the sunset."
"Sou ka?"
Kame plops down next to him.
"You and the guys come here together?"
"No."
The teen turns to his side.
"Just me."
"I like to think out here."
Kame chuckled.
"What's so funny?"
The teen pouts.
"You."
Kame flick the other's forehead gently.
"Haya, you're only a teen, how much are there for you to think about?"
He tsked and crossed his arms on his chest.
"You're talking as if you're an old man."
Kame laughed.
"Aho..."
"Hey, you don't know how stressful it is being the captain of the basket ball team."
The teen defended.
"Our coach just stand there and order us around, but pretty much I come up with everything, you know."
"And then there's school; the tests, the homeworks, the projects..."
"So you come here to think about the team and school?"
"No..."
The teen shook his head, and closed his eyes.
"I come here to think of you, mostly..."
"Eh...?"
Kame blinked.
The teen blushed, and looked away.
"Yeah... I come here to think of you."
"I told myself I'd bring you here, and I'm glad I get to do that today."
"And moreover it's... it's our special day."
Kame smiles, and slowly sits up.
"Here."
He pats his laps.
"Eh?"
The teen nods.
"What-"
"Just come here, Haya..."
Kame pats his laps again.
The teen shifts his body, and slowly place his head on the older man's laps.
Kame takes off his gloves and gently caress the younger's soft dark locks, sort of ruffling off the snow from there.
"Giniro kirameku machi
Ame ga yuki ni kawatta
Yumeiro mabushii mirai miteta
Ano hi no christmas
Hayato smiled and closed his eyes, leaning to the older man's touch.
Anata wo mite waratta
Seinaru yoru ni
Namida ga afureta ne
Eien ni suki nanoni naze
He opened his eyes, to see his love one crying.
Ima yuki ga maichiru
Kono sora no tooi mukou niwa
Atarashii dareka ga matsu
Kesenu omoi dakinagara
Ano koro warai atta
Nani mo kowaku nakatta
Anata no yasashisa wo kizu tsuketa
Ano hi no christmas
But thru those tears... he's smiling...
Yume toka kibou sagashite
Samayou dake
Miageta sora takasugite
Tsukamenai yo todoku no ni naze
Ima yuki ga maichiru
Ano koro wo mayowanu kimochi wa
Atarashii asu e tsuzuku
Nido to modoranai story
Arukidaseba tomadou kedo
Te de toketa yuki no hanabira wa
Mata itsuka meguri atte
Kokoro tashikameru darou"
He sat up, and kissed those tears away.
"That was beautiful."
He whispered.
"Thank you."
"You're welcome."
Kame smiled.
"It would've been better if I sang it on the holidays."
He chuckled.
"But still..."
Hayato shook his head.
"It's beautiful."
"Be it holidays or not."
Kame nodded, and wiped the last tear drop with the back of his hand.
"Was it a sad story?"
The teen lowered his head to the older's chest.
"You were crying."
"But you were smiling as well..."
"Was it a bitter sweet one, Kazuya-san?"
"Hn."
Kame wraps his arms around the teen's shoulder.
Their position is a bit awkward, yet it's very comfortable for both of them.
"There were..."
Kame took a deep breath before continuing.
"There were six guys..."
"Hn..."
The teen nodded.
"Hm... the first guy, K, sat under the street light. He looked up as he watch the silver rain becomes snow."
"K saw the dream colored future on that day of christmas."
"Then, there's A."
"A smiled at his special one on that sacred night."
"His tears overflowed, though he said he loves his special one forever, he asks, why?"
"Now the snow dances as they fall, and the sky far beyond here, someone new is waiting,"
"holding on to a feeling that will never fade."
"N, the third guy... he remembers his special day with his special one."
"He said that they smiled at each other in those days, and were not afraid of anything."
"The fourth guy, T, hurt his special one's kindness, on that day of christmas."
"U, searched for dream and hope, yet he found nothing but lost."
"And then T, the sixth guy, says the sky he looks up is too high, and he couldn't hold on to it even if he can reach it. Why?"
"Now the snow dances as they fall, the unhesitating feeling of those days, continues on to a new tomorrow."
"A story that will never return, even though they wonder as they start walking."
"But the snowflakes that melted in their hands, will come back again someday and reassure their hearts."
Hayato blinks, and listens patiently as he tries to understand everything his boyfriend is telling him.
"And that's the story behind the song."
Kame smiled.
Hayato smiled back at the older man, and leaned up to give him a quick peck on his lips.
"That was beautiful, Kazuya-san..."
"Are the six of them okay?"
"Eh?"
Kame frowned.
"Well, from what you're telling me, it's kind of a sad story, yet... there's hope waiting for them somewhere."
Hayato points.
"Even though on that snowy day... they have their hearts broken, they know that... somehow, everything will turn out okay."
Kame nods, and smiles at him.
"HA! I'm right!"
The teen fisted his hand in the air in triumph.
"Oh, what about the first two guys... K & A?"
”Are they okay in the end?"
Kame flinched, and the teen frowned.
"Why... why do you specifically asked on those two?"
Kame smiled, covering his flaws.
"To me... somehow it felt like... their story didn't end like others."
He pointed.
"It's as if... hmm... I don't know... maybe I misunderstood."
“I mean… somehow, the TTUN have a happy ending…”
“Even though the sixth guy, T, couldn’t reach what he’s aiming for… there’s somewhat hope for him.”
”And as for U, he can find hopes and dreams even when he’s lost.”
“N just reminiscence about his past that he was brave, and could conquer anything.”
“But K & A… I don’t quite understand their story.”
”What do you think?”
Kame sighed, and smiled at the teen.
“I think… it’s just some messed up music video, Haya.”
He pats the teen’s cheek.
”Sometimes the songs and videos don’t really make sense, right?”
“Yeah.”
The teen nodded.
”Were they famous?”
“You know… those six guys…”
“Ah… I guess so.”
Kame forced a smile.
”They’re okay, I guess.”
”It felt somewhat real…”
He said softly.
” The story and the song…”
“Was it based on true story?”
Kame raised his brow and chuckled at him.
“What made you think that, Haya?”
“Hmmm…”
The teen shrugged.
”Guess I misunderstood something in there.”
“Yep.”
Kame nods.
”That means…”
”I have to study more…”
The teen pouts.
He hates it when he can only understands so much, or when he only understands stupid stuffs.
Like the conversations he heard between his uncle Tatsuya and Junno ji-chan back in Aspen during winter holiday.
He shivered thinking about that.
“Are you cold?”
Kame frowned.
The teen shook his head as he stood up, and sat behind the older one.
He wraps his arms around the smaller's waist, and brought him closer to his chest.
“I’m so happy…”
The teen whispered.
“Me too.”
He smiled, giving the teen’s hand a squeeze.
“Kazuya-san… why is your heart beating so fast?”
Kame swallowed the lump in his throat and gave him a nervous smile.
“I’m… nervous…”
He chuckled.
”Sorry...”
“You? Nervous?”
The teen shook his head.
”It should be me…”
“I am so nervous right now, Kazuya-san…”
Kame shook his head and caressed the arms that are encircling his form.
“Ne…”
Kame looked up and gave the teen's chin a kiss, and nuzzle his head in the crook of the teen's neck, as they occasionally stretch out their hands to feel the freshly fallen snow on their hands melt away.
~~~
Kame shrieked as another snow ball hit his expensive Burberry coat.
He heard his boyfriend's laughter somewhere in the front, but couldn't spot him as he's hiding behind one of those trees.
He scrapes some snow off the ground, and pats them into a ball.
"Haya~"
His voice echoed a bit.
"Haya~"
He heard a small chuckle, and ran up to the big tree up front.
"I got you, HAYA!"
His grin turned to frown as he saw there was no Hayato hiding behind the tree like he expected.
"NOPE! I got YOU!"
His snowball was snatched, and the younger one locked him in his embrace from behind as he crushed the ball in his hand, and sprinkled the snow on his head.
"Hayato you big jerk!!!"
The teen laughed as the older man struggled in his embrace.
"You cheated, Haya!"
"No, I didn't, Kazuya-san."
He brought his other arm to tighten his hold on the man.
"I'm just sneaky."
He leaned on the big tree, still laughing with the older man squirming occasionally.
After calming himself down, he released his hold on the other, and switch their positions.
He pushed the other gently so his back met with the tree's.
"Gomen ne."
The teen grinned.
Kame smiled as the teen gently brush off the remains of the snow off his hair.
"Done."
The teen sighed.
"You cheated."
Kame stuck his tongue out.
"Cheater."
"I did not."
Hayato laughed.
"I'm just sneaky and good."
Kame poked his cheek and laughed along with him.
He stopped laughing when he noticed how close their faces are.
When he tried to look away, the teen cups his cheeks.
The teen closed the distance between their body as he traps the older one with the tree and his own.
Both his hands are on each side of the older's head.
And then, the teen finally descends his lips on his pouty ones.
Kame's arms automatically wraps around the younger's neck.
He almost slumps down when the teen gently asks permission to enter his cavern.
They knew... that it's okay to take it to the next level.
It's okay if their kisses are like these from now on.
___
When they reach their neighborhoods, they stopped holding hands, and the teen put up an act as a teen rebel, who tries to walk behind the older man, and wears a scowl on his face.
But as soon as they were in their own apartment, their hands entwined again.
The teen walked his boyfriend to his bedroom door.
"Thanks for today, Haya."
He swings their entwined hands back and forth.
"It was fun... though you cheated back in the park."
"Are we still on that, Kazuya-san?"
He laughed.
"You're welcome."
The teen leaned in to give a quick peck on his lips.
"I had fun."
"Me too..."
They stare into each other's eyes, and shared a smile.
Hayato kept on holding the older's hand as the other opened the knob to his door.
"Oyasumi, Haya..."
Kame gave a peck on his lips and got in to his room.
"Oyasumi, Kazuya-san."
Kame smiled and closed the door.
Hayato stare at the door for a bit, and then turned around to head for his room just accross the living room.
"YES!"
He jumped, and did a victory dance.
Pumping his fists in the air, and cheered himself.
"He's mine... he's mine... oh, yeah, he's mine!!!"
He plopped on his bed, and hugged his pillow.
"Kazuya-san..."
He nuzzled his nose to the pillow, thinking of the older man across the room.
"Aishiteru yo~"
He closed his eyes, chuckling as today's event replays in his head.
*tbc~*
_WUAH!!! WUAH!!!
did I fail???
UGH!!! I thought it was cheesy, and kind of not... ugh!!!
i don't know if this is even O.K.
*sigh*
i want to write some fluff and lovey dovey stuff between them already!!!
*cries*
and, i am so sorry if i ruined White X-mas...
please don't throw stuffs at me... well, i do deserve it, but... no pineapple throwing, okay?
tomatoes are okay, i'm allergic to pineapples... :(
everyone, what do you think?
i hope you won't abondon this fic because of the failed attempt at sweetness...
oh, and both lyrics, (kame's "story" to Haya is the English translations of it, but I just add some to it... so as if kame is making these up himself...) i hope that's okay...
all credits goes to
http://makikawaii.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/kattun-white-xmas-lyrics-translation/
but if it isn't okay, i'll take it down.
once again, Thank You so much for still reading this fic :)
i know i'm slow, so Thank You so much for putting up with me.
*hands cupcakes*
oh... and... comments are love, everyone!!! :D
*runs off and hides*