I hate my Life
I complain soo mcuh about my life and I guess part of the problem is that nothing ever gets better. I just walked out of my room to see this girl I have a bit of a crush on and one of my friends making out. And obviously this is bothering me, especially since i don't think that he treats her the way she deserves to be treated...I mean hes a great guy but I think she could do better, and thats obviously not me but somebody. In a big group he barely recognizes that shes there half the time but then when there are less people shes gived her all the attention that she deserved all night. And it has to be obvious that I feel this way because whenever they snuggle up or start kissing I start to act completely different, I get all depressed and just stop talking and i really need to get over that. But really as long as shes happy thats the important part, and me thinking this way is probably the reason i don't have any girls interested in me. I'm always looking at what will make their lives better. I really shouldn't even say any of this stuff because i don't know everything and its not my business what they do or how they act. So i'm not sorry I wrote this because it is how I feel but I am sorry for any judging that I did during it.
And then theres the girl I've had feelings for for over a year and a half, now I know I have no shot with her because of how well she nows me and both of these girls are so far out of my league. I dunno what to do about her I find myself acting differently when we hang out together too. But anyway I have 3 girls in my life right now that I have interest in, and one of them I've really started working towards the just friends thing, because Caitlin is awesome and just to have her in my life is great. Life is just funny this way, and I guess I should just be happy that I know all these great girls and that they even talk to me.
The movie The Cable Guy had such a great line in it tonight haha and i thought it worked for me pretty well... it was "but I'm really lonely, I mean look at me, C'mon!" I mean does that some me up a lil or what, and this isn't me being negative I just found it kinda funny.
And then theres the girl I've had feelings for for over a year and a half, now I know I have no shot with her because of how well she nows me and both of these girls are so far out of my league. I dunno what to do about her I find myself acting differently when we hang out together too. But anyway I have 3 girls in my life right now that I have interest in, and one of them I've really started working towards the just friends thing, because Caitlin is awesome and just to have her in my life is great. Life is just funny this way, and I guess I should just be happy that I know all these great girls and that they even talk to me.
The movie The Cable Guy had such a great line in it tonight haha and i thought it worked for me pretty well... it was "but I'm really lonely, I mean look at me, C'mon!" I mean does that some me up a lil or what, and this isn't me being negative I just found it kinda funny.