Big Dog bites the bone....
09-20-03 Saturday Night
I went to the FSU football game today. It was awesome we won 47- 07. Completely whooped them! My sister, Desiree and I got amazing seats due to my sister’s friends are FSU’s football managers and so we got V.I.P. section. So close I could reach out and grab the football thrown from Rix. Well yea… so I had a blast at the game. We then went to Taco Bell got a bite to eat and headed home. On the way home we just passed a traffic light but we were stopped by the traffic in the median we hear a car slightly screech and horns go off. I turn to look and see a silver car run the red light; I then see the body of a homeless man rolling to a stop on the ground. I tell my sister to stop the car, I run over to the man. I was the first one there and checked his pulse he’s alive. After I got there was another woman… I believe a MD since she had some medical supplies with her… she rushed over and checked him out the best she could without moving him. Emma (my sister) and Desiree park the car and head over. By the time they got there someone had called 911 and an ambulance was on the way. It was a hit and run. I was pissed that the fucking bastard had the fucking nerve to leave after he hit someone. The homeless guy had hit the car and rolled up over the hood of the car and fell and rolled to a stop to where I saw him. My sister was crying and Desiree was upset as well. I seemed rather saddened by it, but I stood strong. I stood over the man and prayed for him, I prayed over and over again and I shall continue to pray. I asked the cop where they were taking him and got the name of the hospital, Emma asked me to do so. At home after a short while, my sister calls the hospital but since she is now family the guy can’t legally disclose any information. But he tells my sister that even if we did visit him, he wouldn’t be able to tell. He is STILL in the emergency room and NOT in ICU (intensive care unit) which is rare but means that they are still working on him due to the fact that he must be badly hurt.
I shall continue to pray…
Speaking of which I am watching a special on the Philippines. It’s like a travel show, but it’s English.. you can tell by the woman’s accent and vocabulary (heli) for helicopter and so forth. Well in a city in there males would slash themselves with some type of leaves tied at the end of a short thin rope. They would bleed, fall to their knees and continue to slash themselves… as Christ was slashed. They would also carry huge crosses bigger then themselves, and wear a crown on twig or thorns on their head while doing so. All to be closer to GOD, the see what JESUS went through and in a way to pay Amish to him. Then they would reach a certain place and get nailed .. yes NAILED through their hands to the cross, lightly and would step on a small place on their cross there their toes got nailed as well. The were strapped to the cross being that the nails weren’t driven in them hard enough to keep them on the cross (as Jesus was) and then people raise the crosses. They stay for an undetermined amount of time.
WOW
I WILL DO THAT. In my life I shall definitely go through that. I pray that I do and want to so badly. Experience just an EXTREMELLEY small amount of what Jesus went through. I want to go through that.. and bleed and fell pain and suffer. Wow…
I already am EXTREMELLY thankful for everything I have and do not take things for granted, I sometimes pray that GOD will help me not take things for granted and yes that prayer has been answered many ties and I learn more and more to be more thankful. If you just open up your eyes and look around.. I mean REALLY look around... Not just where you live but around the world… see what you have and place yourself in the poorest nation amongst people who have nothing and are dieing…. You shall be considered a King or Queen. I am thankful for everything I have, everything I have gone through and know and understand. I do pride myself in being one of the most open minded people a person shall come to know. And I not being ignorant and being thankful for everything does open my eyes…. But I want to experience that pain and suffering to see more and further appreciate all that I have and not lose touch with it.
I want to travel the world, see everything, live everywhere, know all type of people and see everything, experience everything.
I finished Lullaby yesterday. I finished the book in TWO DAYS reading it, how awesome is that? Me...!!! Mr. short attn: span. Mr.. “I hate Reading Books”… ha, I feel so accomplished and I shall tell you my friends, that book has become my favorite!!
I love it and wow… I picked it up again tonight just to thumb through it and re-read a few passages that are wow.
Why is the book so amazing?... two words…
CHUCK PALAHNIUK!! He is amazing!! He wrote Fight Club and well if anyone has seen Fight Club they know how “weird” and “creative” and “strange” and “off the wall” his stories may be. Well WOW!! I love it!!!
A certain character in that book named Oyster reminded me of Daria for more than just a few reasons… eh
Well yea I am now reading Crash by J.G. Ballard, and then will read Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk. When I get home I’ma order more books.. I wont read fight club nor Choke by Chuck... for they remind me a little TOO MUCH of Daria… just thinking about them.. and I know they will A LOT MORE reading them. So yea… I shall not read those two books by him. For whatever it’s worth… after that threesome a while back I have kept true to myself and my celibacy promise. I have gotten in touch deeper with GOD and been true to myself… reading , working out, running , walking, and remaining celibate.
I now have eye liner all over my face , lol… I was in the rest room and got bored, lol.. my lips have teeth drawn on them and my eyes look kind of like a freakish Charlie Chaplin… which is who I will be on Halloween… hmm Halloween… it will be a year pretty soon from when I hooked up with Daria… I remember the first SONG I wrote to/about her was on Thanksgiving and the first poem was roughly a week or two before that. I still remain UN-RRESENTFUL about/to her. She does still remain as the biggest thing in my life for a certain time in my life, that has taught me a lot… and I think.. wow… just was i?.. was I a fool to think? .. Yes I was… I was a fool to think at all…
I do have more to say.. I met a woman who for over 23 years spent her time in Papua New Guinea living amongst a tribe who never saw white skin before. Their language has never been written down and so she was the first person to ever write down their language and yes she gave them their alphabet and taught them how to read and write their own language. She also wrote the first few books in their language... she has amazing stories to tell and to share. She is over 70 and is such an amazing person that had lived through and has gone through so much. You can definitely learn so much through the elderly…
She told me some stories that maybe sometime in the future I shall write down, in here.. but until then.. I shall say goodnight to you people…
I am writing this in the living room right now and am going to pass this on a disk and update my LJ with it when I go to the library…
It’s Saturday night... 12:29AM.. well Sunday morning really.. lol the 21st
Kyle and Desiree are upstairs and I want them to see my eye liner face before they leave and b4 I take my shower… and so this is goodbye for prolly another long time. I shall make my bed on the floor ( a blanket on the floor with a thin sheet covering me) as I am fine with.. no complaints from me.. as there have been none in a long while.. and I like that about myself… have become very patient as well. Taking a look at myself makes me smile in contrast to ow I’ve grown up… ha… physically as well.. uuww my muscles are growing , lol… No1 belives me when I say I’m a freshman…
I’m out
GOD BLESS EVERYONE
And
*HUG* to everyone
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"I know she's gonna leave my broken heart behind her" .. Yea I knew that too... knowing it or not... still hurts
But I'll take what she's given up... and I am thankful for any and every little thing I have gone through with her/because of her.. they didn't kill me and so they made me stronger.
...diggin a ditch where madness gives a bit, diggin a ditch where silence lives, where all these troubles that weigh down on me...will rise...will rise...WILL RISE
Un-plug the TV ,turn off your phone these quiet-aphobics , these noise-aholics...
I went to the FSU football game today. It was awesome we won 47- 07. Completely whooped them! My sister, Desiree and I got amazing seats due to my sister’s friends are FSU’s football managers and so we got V.I.P. section. So close I could reach out and grab the football thrown from Rix. Well yea… so I had a blast at the game. We then went to Taco Bell got a bite to eat and headed home. On the way home we just passed a traffic light but we were stopped by the traffic in the median we hear a car slightly screech and horns go off. I turn to look and see a silver car run the red light; I then see the body of a homeless man rolling to a stop on the ground. I tell my sister to stop the car, I run over to the man. I was the first one there and checked his pulse he’s alive. After I got there was another woman… I believe a MD since she had some medical supplies with her… she rushed over and checked him out the best she could without moving him. Emma (my sister) and Desiree park the car and head over. By the time they got there someone had called 911 and an ambulance was on the way. It was a hit and run. I was pissed that the fucking bastard had the fucking nerve to leave after he hit someone. The homeless guy had hit the car and rolled up over the hood of the car and fell and rolled to a stop to where I saw him. My sister was crying and Desiree was upset as well. I seemed rather saddened by it, but I stood strong. I stood over the man and prayed for him, I prayed over and over again and I shall continue to pray. I asked the cop where they were taking him and got the name of the hospital, Emma asked me to do so. At home after a short while, my sister calls the hospital but since she is now family the guy can’t legally disclose any information. But he tells my sister that even if we did visit him, he wouldn’t be able to tell. He is STILL in the emergency room and NOT in ICU (intensive care unit) which is rare but means that they are still working on him due to the fact that he must be badly hurt.
I shall continue to pray…
Speaking of which I am watching a special on the Philippines. It’s like a travel show, but it’s English.. you can tell by the woman’s accent and vocabulary (heli) for helicopter and so forth. Well in a city in there males would slash themselves with some type of leaves tied at the end of a short thin rope. They would bleed, fall to their knees and continue to slash themselves… as Christ was slashed. They would also carry huge crosses bigger then themselves, and wear a crown on twig or thorns on their head while doing so. All to be closer to GOD, the see what JESUS went through and in a way to pay Amish to him. Then they would reach a certain place and get nailed .. yes NAILED through their hands to the cross, lightly and would step on a small place on their cross there their toes got nailed as well. The were strapped to the cross being that the nails weren’t driven in them hard enough to keep them on the cross (as Jesus was) and then people raise the crosses. They stay for an undetermined amount of time.
WOW
I WILL DO THAT. In my life I shall definitely go through that. I pray that I do and want to so badly. Experience just an EXTREMELLEY small amount of what Jesus went through. I want to go through that.. and bleed and fell pain and suffer. Wow…
I already am EXTREMELLY thankful for everything I have and do not take things for granted, I sometimes pray that GOD will help me not take things for granted and yes that prayer has been answered many ties and I learn more and more to be more thankful. If you just open up your eyes and look around.. I mean REALLY look around... Not just where you live but around the world… see what you have and place yourself in the poorest nation amongst people who have nothing and are dieing…. You shall be considered a King or Queen. I am thankful for everything I have, everything I have gone through and know and understand. I do pride myself in being one of the most open minded people a person shall come to know. And I not being ignorant and being thankful for everything does open my eyes…. But I want to experience that pain and suffering to see more and further appreciate all that I have and not lose touch with it.
I want to travel the world, see everything, live everywhere, know all type of people and see everything, experience everything.
I finished Lullaby yesterday. I finished the book in TWO DAYS reading it, how awesome is that? Me...!!! Mr. short attn: span. Mr.. “I hate Reading Books”… ha, I feel so accomplished and I shall tell you my friends, that book has become my favorite!!
I love it and wow… I picked it up again tonight just to thumb through it and re-read a few passages that are wow.
Why is the book so amazing?... two words…
CHUCK PALAHNIUK!! He is amazing!! He wrote Fight Club and well if anyone has seen Fight Club they know how “weird” and “creative” and “strange” and “off the wall” his stories may be. Well WOW!! I love it!!!
A certain character in that book named Oyster reminded me of Daria for more than just a few reasons… eh
Well yea I am now reading Crash by J.G. Ballard, and then will read Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk. When I get home I’ma order more books.. I wont read fight club nor Choke by Chuck... for they remind me a little TOO MUCH of Daria… just thinking about them.. and I know they will A LOT MORE reading them. So yea… I shall not read those two books by him. For whatever it’s worth… after that threesome a while back I have kept true to myself and my celibacy promise. I have gotten in touch deeper with GOD and been true to myself… reading , working out, running , walking, and remaining celibate.
I now have eye liner all over my face , lol… I was in the rest room and got bored, lol.. my lips have teeth drawn on them and my eyes look kind of like a freakish Charlie Chaplin… which is who I will be on Halloween… hmm Halloween… it will be a year pretty soon from when I hooked up with Daria… I remember the first SONG I wrote to/about her was on Thanksgiving and the first poem was roughly a week or two before that. I still remain UN-RRESENTFUL about/to her. She does still remain as the biggest thing in my life for a certain time in my life, that has taught me a lot… and I think.. wow… just was i?.. was I a fool to think? .. Yes I was… I was a fool to think at all…
I do have more to say.. I met a woman who for over 23 years spent her time in Papua New Guinea living amongst a tribe who never saw white skin before. Their language has never been written down and so she was the first person to ever write down their language and yes she gave them their alphabet and taught them how to read and write their own language. She also wrote the first few books in their language... she has amazing stories to tell and to share. She is over 70 and is such an amazing person that had lived through and has gone through so much. You can definitely learn so much through the elderly…
She told me some stories that maybe sometime in the future I shall write down, in here.. but until then.. I shall say goodnight to you people…
I am writing this in the living room right now and am going to pass this on a disk and update my LJ with it when I go to the library…
It’s Saturday night... 12:29AM.. well Sunday morning really.. lol the 21st
Kyle and Desiree are upstairs and I want them to see my eye liner face before they leave and b4 I take my shower… and so this is goodbye for prolly another long time. I shall make my bed on the floor ( a blanket on the floor with a thin sheet covering me) as I am fine with.. no complaints from me.. as there have been none in a long while.. and I like that about myself… have become very patient as well. Taking a look at myself makes me smile in contrast to ow I’ve grown up… ha… physically as well.. uuww my muscles are growing , lol… No1 belives me when I say I’m a freshman…
I’m out
GOD BLESS EVERYONE
And
*HUG* to everyone
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"I know she's gonna leave my broken heart behind her" .. Yea I knew that too... knowing it or not... still hurts
But I'll take what she's given up... and I am thankful for any and every little thing I have gone through with her/because of her.. they didn't kill me and so they made me stronger.
...diggin a ditch where madness gives a bit, diggin a ditch where silence lives, where all these troubles that weigh down on me...will rise...will rise...WILL RISE
Un-plug the TV ,turn off your phone these quiet-aphobics , these noise-aholics...