its been a long ass time
alright, so the last time I posted on this was like. . . hmmm, a year ago?
perhaps more? but I just saw someone who is still posting, I guess I kinda thought this wasn't "in" any more.
not that I would do it for the sole reason that it would be in . . . whatever.
sooo updates,
I graduated. that wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be. I thought I would feel more accomplished. more . . . .moved on, older I guess.
I live in connecticut now.
I quit greg's. he sucked, I wish I didn't have to quit. because then I wouldn't have had to spend all of tonight crying and comming home to a lonely, shit-smelling household while my mom and dad and family are still together in New York.
and I cant come home for christmas. and I miss everyone. and my knee is fucked up. and I never see my friends. and I am growing up too fast.
I blame all of this on greg.
he sent me to a barn all summer, by myself with 14 horses that i had to take care of COMPLETELY by myself and he didn't pay me and I never got a day off. Not exactly the way I pictured my summer after graduation to be.
But there are some things I could thank him for.
Now I ride with THE Leslie Burr Howard. Two time olympic medalist. Gold in 1984, she was 27. Silver in 1996.
She is by far the most absolutely amazing rider I have ever seen, ever in my entire life.
I want her to teach me everything she knows. well, she is doing that.
so I guess I can't complain. I just dont want to feel so alone.
Im only 18 you know. I know
perhaps more? but I just saw someone who is still posting, I guess I kinda thought this wasn't "in" any more.
not that I would do it for the sole reason that it would be in . . . whatever.
sooo updates,
I graduated. that wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be. I thought I would feel more accomplished. more . . . .moved on, older I guess.
I live in connecticut now.
I quit greg's. he sucked, I wish I didn't have to quit. because then I wouldn't have had to spend all of tonight crying and comming home to a lonely, shit-smelling household while my mom and dad and family are still together in New York.
and I cant come home for christmas. and I miss everyone. and my knee is fucked up. and I never see my friends. and I am growing up too fast.
I blame all of this on greg.
he sent me to a barn all summer, by myself with 14 horses that i had to take care of COMPLETELY by myself and he didn't pay me and I never got a day off. Not exactly the way I pictured my summer after graduation to be.
But there are some things I could thank him for.
Now I ride with THE Leslie Burr Howard. Two time olympic medalist. Gold in 1984, she was 27. Silver in 1996.
She is by far the most absolutely amazing rider I have ever seen, ever in my entire life.
I want her to teach me everything she knows. well, she is doing that.
so I guess I can't complain. I just dont want to feel so alone.
Im only 18 you know. I know