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[parker416]

I haven't updated this is quite a while.

Things are going pretty good.

They were going pretty shitilly there for a while.
is that even a word? Shitilly? hmm

schools okay, and the barn overwhemled me quite a bit for like the end of sep. to begining of october.

We just had a lot of shows and I was there too much

Oh! yeah . . I qualified for the New England.

I won it at Castleneck Farm.
I am soo excited, we leave for finals on tuesday.

I swear I'm gonna fuck up on the first round but whatever, good experience right?
suuure.

My life has pretty much come down to two things: (well 3 if you count school)
1. Horses
2. Shows (local band shows that is)
I find that pretty pathetic when
I barely know anyone in the bands,

but I feel like I'm not really good enough to hang out with all of them

not pretty enough
not interesting enough
and Im pretty sure that they think Im some groupie, ditsy blonde who stares and follows them around.

But thats not true . . .
I loooove the music, and Im so busy that I just cant have much of a social life

so whats the point in making more friends?

I think Im becoming too cynical.