this is kinda funny

[parker416]

sooo I love looking at this after several months or like a year and re-reading everything

its so strange

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
So I am sitting in my apartment,
Julia is in math.

I am procrastinating, which, btw, I have become an expert at

I have a huge research paper bibliography annotation thing due
and a journal
and an italian test
I haven't gotten started yet
whatever

So I cried today,
Dooey died
Leesa had to put him down yesterday.
I didn't cry yesterday,
I cried today.

it seems like death is just happening a lot more often lately
Cameron Bucanan died this summer
That FREAKED me out
A LOT
I had a hard time with that one,
and I didn't know him very well.
But I just felt so bad

and thats why I cried today
I thought about Leesa and Candace and how sad they were
that makes me sad
because I love them
hmmm, sometimes it makes me want to turn to god
it would help explain some things in life

But then I have to remind myself
that life is random and
turning to god, at least for me,
is a dependency that I just can't
depend on.

if that makes ANY sense

I cant wait for Thanksgiving

And I love the poet Judy Grahn, she's like this raging lesbian from the 1940's
Shes awesome.
I'm not a feminist
Im not a lesbian
but I love her poetry.
I can relate to it.

Sometimes life is funny