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Am I being paranoid, or is he not looking at me anymore ?
That just cannot be. Last week, he was ok. The thing is since he told me to be sensible about it, I stopped everything. No more emails, no little notes on his desk, no chocolate nor anything else.
I don’t go towards his office for any reason, I don’t even start a conversation just to have him look at me. Nothing.
It’s hard to know, to understand and accept the fact he will never be mine. It hurts really deep inside.
But it seems to me he is on another world, and I don’t belong to it. I just don’t fit you see. We are there, looking at each other but making nothing towards each other. We’re just observing each other. But it’s pointless. What’s the use?! Nothing can be done about it.
It also seems to me he is avoiding me. It makes me so sad. I want to cry but I won’t because I’m not sure he deserves me crying for him, even though I have to admit he’s never ever done anything bad or unpleasant. He’s always been correct. Polite. Fun. And I was always the one doing stupid things because he made me lose all my means.
He’s always been nice, but maybe I wanted to see flirtiness in it. But I know he likes me because two friends at work told me so. I like him so much but I have to be strong and dignified…
And get obsessed over another boy!
There is this nice guy who asked me if I wanted to have a drink tonight, so I said yes. Not like anything will happen, but... I feel like shit you know.
There is this other man, a secret one, if only he were here...
That just cannot be. Last week, he was ok. The thing is since he told me to be sensible about it, I stopped everything. No more emails, no little notes on his desk, no chocolate nor anything else.
I don’t go towards his office for any reason, I don’t even start a conversation just to have him look at me. Nothing.
It’s hard to know, to understand and accept the fact he will never be mine. It hurts really deep inside.
But it seems to me he is on another world, and I don’t belong to it. I just don’t fit you see. We are there, looking at each other but making nothing towards each other. We’re just observing each other. But it’s pointless. What’s the use?! Nothing can be done about it.
It also seems to me he is avoiding me. It makes me so sad. I want to cry but I won’t because I’m not sure he deserves me crying for him, even though I have to admit he’s never ever done anything bad or unpleasant. He’s always been correct. Polite. Fun. And I was always the one doing stupid things because he made me lose all my means.
He’s always been nice, but maybe I wanted to see flirtiness in it. But I know he likes me because two friends at work told me so. I like him so much but I have to be strong and dignified…
And get obsessed over another boy!
There is this nice guy who asked me if I wanted to have a drink tonight, so I said yes. Not like anything will happen, but... I feel like shit you know.
There is this other man, a secret one, if only he were here...