I don't wanna grow up.
The little boy in the yellow rain slicker at Safeway was so happy to be wearing his new shiny yellowness. I remember how that felt. Its not even raining.
The 40 something year old checker with his bleached blond hair was hopelessly hopeful...and I wanted to tell him not to worry, I'd go out with him...even if he didn't feel young and attractive anymore...
Now I must go spill my guts. Bleh.
edit: No shrink for me. I got to the office. 45 minutes away. The receptionist looked at me like I was crazy. "Um, Stacey isn't in the office today. Her appointments were all cancelled and she has taken some time off." -- Next available appt. December 19th. I walked out the door and wanted to go around kicking all of those BMWs. Its nothing to them. Its nothing to them that something is taking me over and I don't know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't have the energy to make an appointment somewhere else. I can't wait until December 19th. It took so much just to get to this place. damndamndamndamndamnit!!!!
Keep walking around. Keep living. Keep breathing. Keep being. Keep on truckin. Keep pretending. Keep trying. Keep keep keep keep keep. Keep is a weird word if you say it too many times.
Oh my goddess. It is so beautiful outside right now. Apparently the ring around the moon last night DID mean rain.
AND bad luck. Well, at least as far as appointments with head doctors go.
gratitude: steady windshield wiper sound over car music
calories
The 40 something year old checker with his bleached blond hair was hopelessly hopeful...and I wanted to tell him not to worry, I'd go out with him...even if he didn't feel young and attractive anymore...
Now I must go spill my guts. Bleh.
edit: No shrink for me. I got to the office. 45 minutes away. The receptionist looked at me like I was crazy. "Um, Stacey isn't in the office today. Her appointments were all cancelled and she has taken some time off." -- Next available appt. December 19th. I walked out the door and wanted to go around kicking all of those BMWs. Its nothing to them. Its nothing to them that something is taking me over and I don't know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't have the energy to make an appointment somewhere else. I can't wait until December 19th. It took so much just to get to this place. damndamndamndamndamnit!!!!
Keep walking around. Keep living. Keep breathing. Keep being. Keep on truckin. Keep pretending. Keep trying. Keep keep keep keep keep. Keep is a weird word if you say it too many times.
Oh my goddess. It is so beautiful outside right now. Apparently the ring around the moon last night DID mean rain.
AND bad luck. Well, at least as far as appointments with head doctors go.
gratitude: steady windshield wiper sound over car music
calories