I have been having a really hard time finding ways in which i would like to love people, ways in which i could chalenge my fears about love and intimacy while sustaining and creating passion, fun and lighhearted connection. I have found people who have really moved my heart and have sparked my love and compassion, yet i still fear that they will ( Read more... )

so i'm doing all better, and i'm walking, shaking my booty, doing tons of homework, and feeling like a human being again. I'm freaking out cuz i'm having a bit of swelling and lumping but that is normal ppl say... so i'm gonna relax....
grad school starts in a month
YES!!!!!!!!!

OH mi god, my boobsters are gone.. YAY, from now on i have flat titites.....
thank you all for being here and helping out i love you all budsters

wow. life is little nuts. I'm sitting at work and for the last couple of days whenever i sign in a guest, where i have to write the date, i get that little thin shock up the snipe and chest, the oh mi god its the 12th already, that only 3 no 2 days. ahhhh ahhh ahhhh, my stomack cramps up and i'm little frozen. Lordie ( Read more... )

so i had my pre op today. I love the nurse at the clinic. her name is GG and she jokes about being "GG the genetic girl". She is hella trans friendly and a bundle of good olde brooklyn energy. She calms me down like nobody else. The pre op consisted of her telling me how to take care of myself before during and after the surgery. She showed me the ( Read more... )

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so this job that i have now is totally ridiculous. i take full responsibility for my privilege as a college educated person but these social services folks in my work do not know the first thing about empowerment. they set up "drug talks" and "social outings" for people like these folks are kids. there is no mental health help just AA. and the ( Read more... )

i have been working so much its outta my mind, and i think i'm gonna go nuts. i just worked a swing and a day shift , killer. all i gots energy for is going home and doin the deed on miself. lord. beer and night time tv. now i know why people in this country are so apathetic they don't have the energy to care ( Read more... )

so i'm going to revitilize this journal, i'm not a journal writer but this is pathetic.....