sure was a weekend
I got to spend last weekend in Boulder visiting R and running a few errands \o/
R gave me a wonderful late birthday present: a winnie the pooh card with cute Engrish telling me "you have happy and wonderful 23 years old" and a PS3+gamestop cards ;3; Now I just.. need a TV to play it on, some day. orz The TV in my house is occupied by my aunt 24/7 so I feel bad taking away her only source of entertainment;;
I also spent my time there waddling around campus to do a few errands. Went to a resume workshop there and got some awesome advice that was enough to make even a spineless inexperienced loser like me believe I might have a future after all ;A(\
Then went to the campus loan office right after, where they quickly stomped the joy out of me. I have two loans: a frigging huge loan and a relatively tiny loan. Since I graduated this year, I have grace periods on both of them before payments are due. I THOUGHT that the tiny loan's grace period ended in November, with the big one ending next spring. Turns out I had these due dates backwards and the big one's first payment is due... next week. After wiping the shit off my face, I went online for further information and it looks like I will be paying off this stupid loan for ten years. All of my monthly loan payments are also about 87% of what I currently make per month. /o\ I'm just crossing my fingers that this shitty, shitty financial situation won't mean living with my mom for those ten years. I've only been here a month and I want to pull my hair out from all the bullshit family drama I have to listen to on a daily basis. College, why are you so expensive? ;A; Still ffffffffmad that everyone who ever told me "LOL DON'T WORRY WE'LL HELP YOU PAY FOR COLLEGE, THE LOANS ARE JUST TO BUILD CREDIT" waited until the end of my education and then bailed on me, while I stand there with the bill. Equally mad at the way so many people I knew in college whose parents were paying for everything for them would just sleep all day and then drop out due to laziness. I'd kill for that kind of parental support, let me trade with you sleepy people~ ;A;
ALSO I fell down some stairs and have the largest bruise ever on my knee. ALSO ALSO I got a depressing phone call from R earlier today informing me that his roommate (let's call him S) basically told R that he doesn't want me in their apartment any more. He didn't say why-- S just told R that he doesn't want me to go back to their apartment until after S goes back to Japan. I don't know what the hell I did wrong this weekend that made S never want me in his presence ever again, but I'm pretty damn offended and hurt by it. T^T We didn't talk a lot in this past year, but when we did, we got along pretty well. I was out doing errands or walking around town for most of my weekend trip, too, so I'm not even sure when I was AROUND to make him randomly hate me. I think I have some kind of curse that naturally pushes people away from me orz
So I guess even if I manage to scrape together the time and money to go all the way to see R, now even his roommate will be the final barrier separating us. Why me? T^T
VIDEO GAMES: I finally started playing Dissidia and I suck at it. A lot. I can't remember the last time I've gotten horribly low scores and/or game overs on levels that are supposedly at the easiest difficulty level... orz I guess I just need to get used to it. The controls feel awkward to me. But I will push on to see the rest of the even-more-awkward story develop before my eyes T^T)/ "WHY ARE WE FIGHTING?" "I DUNNO" "THEN I WILL FIGHT.. UNTIL I FIND THE ANSWER ..." "K" Dissidia is grade-A plot material guys
I also hear that FFXIII is going to have a sphere grid level up style and that makes me happy \o/ Every piece of news makes it feel more and more like the retarded FFVII+FFX love child that I want it to be.
bed time. lately I get sleepy really early. The first time in my life I have been getting sleepy before midnight! What's wrong with me?! T^T lots of beauty sleep so I can wake up bright and early to go to work and sit there doing nothing. I feel awkward and guilty for coming to work when they have nothing for me to do, but at the same time, now that those loans are staring me right in the eye, I need to park my ass in that seat and stare at the wall as long as possible to get enough paid hours in each week. T^T FORGIVE ME, BOSS.
R gave me a wonderful late birthday present: a winnie the pooh card with cute Engrish telling me "you have happy and wonderful 23 years old" and a PS3+gamestop cards ;3; Now I just.. need a TV to play it on, some day. orz The TV in my house is occupied by my aunt 24/7 so I feel bad taking away her only source of entertainment;;
I also spent my time there waddling around campus to do a few errands. Went to a resume workshop there and got some awesome advice that was enough to make even a spineless inexperienced loser like me believe I might have a future after all ;A(\
Then went to the campus loan office right after, where they quickly stomped the joy out of me. I have two loans: a frigging huge loan and a relatively tiny loan. Since I graduated this year, I have grace periods on both of them before payments are due. I THOUGHT that the tiny loan's grace period ended in November, with the big one ending next spring. Turns out I had these due dates backwards and the big one's first payment is due... next week. After wiping the shit off my face, I went online for further information and it looks like I will be paying off this stupid loan for ten years. All of my monthly loan payments are also about 87% of what I currently make per month. /o\ I'm just crossing my fingers that this shitty, shitty financial situation won't mean living with my mom for those ten years. I've only been here a month and I want to pull my hair out from all the bullshit family drama I have to listen to on a daily basis. College, why are you so expensive? ;A; Still ffffffffmad that everyone who ever told me "LOL DON'T WORRY WE'LL HELP YOU PAY FOR COLLEGE, THE LOANS ARE JUST TO BUILD CREDIT" waited until the end of my education and then bailed on me, while I stand there with the bill. Equally mad at the way so many people I knew in college whose parents were paying for everything for them would just sleep all day and then drop out due to laziness. I'd kill for that kind of parental support, let me trade with you sleepy people~ ;A;
ALSO I fell down some stairs and have the largest bruise ever on my knee. ALSO ALSO I got a depressing phone call from R earlier today informing me that his roommate (let's call him S) basically told R that he doesn't want me in their apartment any more. He didn't say why-- S just told R that he doesn't want me to go back to their apartment until after S goes back to Japan. I don't know what the hell I did wrong this weekend that made S never want me in his presence ever again, but I'm pretty damn offended and hurt by it. T^T We didn't talk a lot in this past year, but when we did, we got along pretty well. I was out doing errands or walking around town for most of my weekend trip, too, so I'm not even sure when I was AROUND to make him randomly hate me. I think I have some kind of curse that naturally pushes people away from me orz
So I guess even if I manage to scrape together the time and money to go all the way to see R, now even his roommate will be the final barrier separating us. Why me? T^T
VIDEO GAMES: I finally started playing Dissidia and I suck at it. A lot. I can't remember the last time I've gotten horribly low scores and/or game overs on levels that are supposedly at the easiest difficulty level... orz I guess I just need to get used to it. The controls feel awkward to me. But I will push on to see the rest of the even-more-awkward story develop before my eyes T^T)/ "WHY ARE WE FIGHTING?" "I DUNNO" "THEN I WILL FIGHT.. UNTIL I FIND THE ANSWER ..." "K" Dissidia is grade-A plot material guys
I also hear that FFXIII is going to have a sphere grid level up style and that makes me happy \o/ Every piece of news makes it feel more and more like the retarded FFVII+FFX love child that I want it to be.
bed time. lately I get sleepy really early. The first time in my life I have been getting sleepy before midnight! What's wrong with me?! T^T lots of beauty sleep so I can wake up bright and early to go to work and sit there doing nothing. I feel awkward and guilty for coming to work when they have nothing for me to do, but at the same time, now that those loans are staring me right in the eye, I need to park my ass in that seat and stare at the wall as long as possible to get enough paid hours in each week. T^T FORGIVE ME, BOSS.