When you felt as though I wasn't giving you an option....you blew up at me, no discussion, no levelheaded calm conversation. Just full on sarcasm, bitterness, and what felt like hatred towards none other than me. You don't hate me....but you make me feel like it every time your aggravated or frustrated. Every time you're mad at me, you talk to ( Read more... )

I hate complaining, I really do....but fuck am I tired all the time. And stressed more often it seems. Ally won't even come to bed at a decent hour anymore because of me. I apparently move around so much and talk from a restless slumber that she can't handle it..... I hate myself for that because I am comforted by her cuddling in next to me and I ( Read more... )

I am so tired of being invisible. The feeling of being able to transcend society without notice used to be amazing. I hated being noticed, ya know being invisible in the real world outside of raves and rocky was perfect for me. The problem is that when I was invisible before, all of my friends were invisible with me.....now I'm the only one who is ( Read more... )

Today i went against my usual judgement to do homework and I went out with cassidy.

The part I enjoyed most was singing in her suv...especially while I was driving the beast. I felt in control for once. I know I dont control a whole lot when it comes to us, so it was nice to feel like something I did was solely dependant upon me.

Our talks open my ( Read more... )

You want to know how I feel?

I feel like I love the way you are, warm and laying next to me in bed at night....when in the middle of sleep, you pull me into your embrace, kiss my forehead and say, "I know baby, I know" as I apologise for being overbearing and overemotional.

my leg feels like jello, but I am so glad to have you around to stick me.... ( Read more... )

Journal,
I had a fun saturday and sunday because of milkdud.
He makes me smile.
But, my week isnt turning out so well.
I wish I were superwoman, 
then I could fly everywhere I went.
Time flies when youre having fun.
Even more so when youre having 2 MUCH fun....
Make me smile?
Nightmares are continuing......
Iv'e read like 3456784 snape fics
I NEED MORE.
lol
<3
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-Journal-
My two best friends broke up on friday
And now they both are calling ME
They want me to fix it
But I dont know how
Help?
In other news
Im single
and it SUCKS
Where are all the sweet guys in Chandler disappearing to?
Basha is going to be fun
YAY colorgaurd!!!
Well, i have to go
Mike just called me
hes bitching about jessica
oh dear
And the circus begins ( Read more... )

Hey Journal, 
Had a rough day today
Colorgaurd killed me
My limbs ache
and I'm sad
Cuz I only spoke to Chris for a little
Then the line got cut
My fingers and toes are screaming at me
OUCH!!!
haha
I'm bored
Cant sleep
I'm lonely
Text me
I should be awake
Love anyone that reads!
(480)-459-6223
<3
Amanda