Bleh
Eh. Today sucked.
Yesterday I went to kats house. We met up with her cousin at the movies, I saw Napoleon Dynamite for the 5th time...It's just not funny after the 4th time..anyway so her cousin is pretty chill, he's from jersey, which is also pretty cool. We were watching fight club as johnny and kat fell asleep. Jordan and I stayed up talking awhile. About life, about his dad and his mom. How he put a knife to his throat, it's really sad, cause I can relate to him, but this kid is only 13. A 13 year old that didn't want to wake up in the morning because he was miserable everyday, and I know exactly how he feels. But fuck, he's so young. I could only imagine him standing in a dark room with a blade to his throat, just not wanting to live. He told me his dad used to beat him, call him fatty and told him he was ashamed to be his father. What an asshole...I felt so bad for him, I wanted to comfort him, but I didn't know what to say?
I guess Chelsea is hooking up with this guy, but I'm happy for her, she deserves the attention and XOXO's I just hope she doesn't fade away into him. Making him her life. I hope he doesn't use her.
I hung out with Alex <3 I missed him. He's soooo spaztastic =D IIII <333 Alex!
I talked to Megan for the first time in like a year...It was cool, I told her we should hang out sometime, and that we should. It'd be fun. I can't believe she has her license! It's weird to imagine that. especially cause I've known her since 5th grade. yay I <333 Megan!
Jenny kept calling me today to see when I'd be home cause she missed me. Shes so cute haha We are like sisters, it's crazy. But anyway she said she'd be around at like 6 then called me...
"hey sarah im back but I'm going to the movies tonight isn't that cool?"
" ummm I guess "
"with arthur. it sucks we can't hang out though"
"whatever"
I'm just tired of her ditching me all the time. Like she can pick me up and drop me anytime she wants. I think that's like most of my friends though. Hmm.
I was having a really good dream today...I was telling this guy how I felt and he was comforting me and hugging me...then he grabbed my ass and I was like YESH and then we were about to make out...then my dad woke me up. god dammit.
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