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i have so much angst in me right now. did not think id feel like this at 26. why?!?!?!!!! i feel so unaccompllished. so boring. im never going to be anyones brides maid or best friend. i feel so fucking rejected. technically no one has rejected me. i just feel rejected. a reject. luel knew he wanted to get married to someone after a month. after 2.5 years, kris has no clue. why do i suddenly feel likeim wasting my time?? if he doesnt know now,will he ever? everyones asking me when im getting married. i blurted out, "hes not going to propose." cos part of me thinks that. if we don't know now, when will we!!?