♫ Lyr!cs: Sorry ♫
!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
I've said this time and time again, but it's true - music is my hero. It not only gets me through my days and nights, and it not only calms me, but it helps me to understand my life - and I feel like I can relate. Makes me feel like someone else out there in the world actually knows how I'm feeling, and put it all into context that the rest of the world can understand.
But as time goes on and as more music is produced, it seems the more I can relate to these songs that are produced - in relation to almost every part of my life: love life, family, friends - just life in general sometimes. It really makes me feel like someone out there understands, and - sometimes I even wonder - if someone can listen to "Sorry" and understand exactly how I feel?
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Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby, Yeah.
I'm sorry.
!! Sorry // Buckcherry !!
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The lyrics to this song - Sorry, by Buckcherry - is a song that really makes sense to me but, only in connection with my relationship with Kris and in no other way. Not how he should be sorry, because, I don't blame him at all for what's happened over the course of the past few weeks. In fact, I blame myself. This song actually kind of explains it, in a subtle way.
"Oh I had alot to say, was thinking on my time away": When I left him during those three four months during the end of 2006 and beginning of 2007, I had a lot of time to think and I did take that time to think.
"I missed you and things weren't the same, 'cause everything inside it never comes out right, and when I see you cry it makes me wanna die": While I was away, I missed Kris deeply, but everything I tried to say to him never came out right, and I just hurt him even more - though I wasn't trying to. Every time he cried because of me, it truly did make me wanna die. I felt so horrible.
"I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all the things I said to you": To this day, I'm so very sorry for everything that I'd ever done wrong in our relationship, and I'm so very sorry for how much of a miserable person I've been to him. Sorry isn't even strong enough to describe how truly sorry I am for how much of a bad girlfriend I am, for how blue I've made him, and everything that I've ever said or not said, and done and not done.
"And I know I can't take it back": I think that is what kills me the most. The fact that I cannot take it back. Every day, I remember everything that I've ever done to him - and it hurts me. It kills me to know that I could be such a horrible person to hurt someone so badly as I've hurt him.
"I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go 'round, and I just wanted to say I'm sorry": He is the only person who's ever given me that feeling of wholeness, completion, and I've messed it all up by everything that I've ever done wrong. I don't just love the way he kisses, or his sounds - I do love the way he makes my entire world go round, but there is so much more to him than that, and it makes me even more sorry.
"Every single day I think about how we came all this way, the sleepless nights and the tears you cried, it's never too late to make it right": Though I believe that it is never too late to make things right, I have come to believe that 'never' finally ran out. Though I believe that I can make things right again, I feel like I truly cannot make things right again - because he's fallen out of love with me. My heart tells me that he'll love me again, but my mind is screaming at me that he's fallen out of love with me and that the chances of him ever actually loving me again - are slim to none.
Oh Kris, how sorry I am for everything that I've ever said to make you cry or to make you angry, you will never know. How sorry I am for everything that I ever did to cause our "connection", our "energy" to go away - you will never know. I wish that I could rewind to where it all began, and do things differently - because maybe now, you would still love me and still look at me the way that you used to.
I'm sorry.
ox (! Tw!nkers !) xo
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