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I went on a blind date earlier, I suppose. It was someone from a dating site. I've met a couple girls off of them, and basically nothing ever happened. I had talked to this woman for a couple weeks on the site, and then some texting. She no-showed. Didn't reply to me the day of or day before. Not sure what happened, and I doubt I will learn. She has probably disappeared without explanation or sympathy, like most women in my life tend to.
I'm so tired of this. Tired of living this way. Feeling desperate and unwanted. Being unable to get over my ex, and unable to find anyone else. Being replaceable at a low-paying, low-skilled job. Being disrespected by friends, and not believed in by anyone. I never wanted this. I hate this. I feel anger more now than I have at any point in my life. My birthday was a miserable day, as it needed to be. I was taken out to a surprise dinner, which was great. Otherwise, the day was shit. including work. That shitty day is every day. I don't want any more of those days.
I want to be happy. I want love, wealth, respect, and fame. Things that have been denied to me my whole life. I'm just tired of this. July can't come soon enough.
I'm so tired of this. Tired of living this way. Feeling desperate and unwanted. Being unable to get over my ex, and unable to find anyone else. Being replaceable at a low-paying, low-skilled job. Being disrespected by friends, and not believed in by anyone. I never wanted this. I hate this. I feel anger more now than I have at any point in my life. My birthday was a miserable day, as it needed to be. I was taken out to a surprise dinner, which was great. Otherwise, the day was shit. including work. That shitty day is every day. I don't want any more of those days.
I want to be happy. I want love, wealth, respect, and fame. Things that have been denied to me my whole life. I'm just tired of this. July can't come soon enough.