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She's seeing someone else. She says she was never that into me. Inevitability, but still horrible to deal with. I feel like throwing up, what the hell is wrong with me? This is the part where I question how everything ended, and question her. I need to take it at face value, because I will never know for sure. We will lose touch, and I will never see her again, never talk to her again. Yeah, I'm planning on leaving this town, but I had hoped to keep in touch. Honestly, I had hoped maybe we could try again later. It's not her fault I am still hung up on her, it just sucks for me.
I cry over her. That never happens. It has been years since I really cried over someone. What the fuck? I can't believe I'm about to hit 25, and am this alone.
I'm heartbroken, I have no respect from my peers, I'm starting to hate school and work, and I'm a nobody. This is not what I wanted. This is what I feared when I was 15 and started getting these rockstar dreams. I live my nightmare every single day. I want to wake up already.
I cry over her. That never happens. It has been years since I really cried over someone. What the fuck? I can't believe I'm about to hit 25, and am this alone.
I'm heartbroken, I have no respect from my peers, I'm starting to hate school and work, and I'm a nobody. This is not what I wanted. This is what I feared when I was 15 and started getting these rockstar dreams. I live my nightmare every single day. I want to wake up already.