I had my hearing for ssi today...dont know if I'll get it yet but I hope I do. I really cant live like this anymore....

Im sitting here staring .....hard to think of things to write about. I have a hearing coming up for ssi. I hope I get it, I need some peace.

So here i sit....sit im here.....

Christmas and junk is over..thank gosh..

Holidays = just such neat anxiety.
Yet at the same time so good.

It is good and fun to get to know yourself.

hmmm...

More reading....

Where should I start ( Read more... )

I woke at 4pm again....sat up in my bed just staring for a while...kept wanting to just cover up and go back to sleep ( Read more... )

Dude, it has like, serial been a long time since I've done this ( Read more... )

what even is this....
sometimes I think I'm getting messages from dead people but like I'm never sure...

Man, I am 31. I was 18 when I started this journal. I re-read it and had some good memories.

So....I can either pay a $700 fine of go to jail for 14 days..........meals..new friends...catch up on some reading...eeh jail aint so bad....right..